The whole establishment was under the rule of a deputy-manager, who was
the terror of the place. He was tall, thin, and suffered occasionally
from spitting of blood, brought on no doubt from excitement. He was the
strangest mixture of exactitude and passion. He had complete mastery
over every detail of the business, and he never blundered. All his work
was thorough, down to the very bottom, and he had the most intolerant
hatred of everything which was loose and inaccurate. He never passed a
day without flaming out into oaths and curses against his subordinates,
and they could not say in his wildest fury that his ravings were beside
the mark. He was wrong in his treatment of men—utterly wrong—but his
facts were always correct. I never saw anybody hated as he was, and the
hatred against him was the more intense because nobody could convict him
of a mistake. He seemed to enjoy a storm, and knew nothing whatever of
the constraints which with ordinary men prevent abusive and brutal
language to those around them. Some of his clerks suffered greatly from
him, and he almost broke down two or three from the constant nervous
strain upon them produced by fear of his explosions. For my own part,
although I came in for a full share of his temper, I at once made up my
mind as soon as I discovered what he was, not to open my lips to him
except under compulsion. My one object now was to get a living. I
wished also to avoid the self-mortification which must ensue from
altercation. I dreaded, as I have always dreaded beyond what I can tell,
the chaos and wreck which, with me, follows subjugation by anger, and I
held to my resolve under all provocation. It was very difficult, but how
many times I have blessed myself for adhesion to it. Instead of going
home undone with excitement, and trembling with fear of dismissal, I have
walked out of my dungeon having had to bite my lips till the blood came,
but still conqueror, and with peace of mind.
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