Martin Pippin in the Apple OrchardFarjeon, Eleanor
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Martin Pippin in the Apple Orchard
Farjeon, Eleanor
Fairy tales; Minstrels -- Fiction
"I don't know what you can prove," said Peter. "One woman by herself
can't prove a difference."
"Can't she?" said Helen; and laughed and cried at once.
"But why did you call me a nuisance?"
"You were one--you are one. You leave a man no peace--you're like the
sea. You're full of storms, aren't you?"
"Not only storms."
"I know. But the sea wouldn't be the sea without her storms. They're
one of her ways of holding us, too. And there are more storms in her
than ever break. I see them in you, big ones and little ones, brooding.
Then you're a--nuisance. You always will be, won't you?"
"Not to wreck you."
"You won't do that. Or if you do--I can survive shipwreck."
"I know."
"How do you know? I nearly gave up once, but the thought of you stopped
me. I wanted to come back--I'd always meant to. So I held on."
"I know."
"How do you know? I never told you, did I?"
"Oh, Peter, the things we have to tell each other. The times you
thought you were alone--the times I thought I was! You've had a life
you never dreamed of--and I another life that was not in my dreams."
"You've saved me from death more than once," said Peter.
"You've done more than that," said Helen, "you've given me the only
life I've had. But a thing doesn't belong to you because you've saved
its life or given it life. It only belongs to you because you love it.
I know you belong to me. But you only know if I belong to you."
"That's not true now. You do know. And I know."
"Yes; and we know that as that belonging has nothing to do with death,
it can't have anything either to do with the saving or even the giving
of life. So you must never thank me, or I you. There are no thanks in
love. And that was why I couldn't bear your asking me to marry you
to-day. I thought you were thanking me."
"When you played with the seagull..."
"Yes?"
"How you loved it!"
"Yes."
"I looked to see how you felt when you loved a thing. I wanted so much
to be the seagull in your hands."
"When I touched it I was touching you."
She put his hand to her breast and whispered, "I love birds."
He smiled. "I knew you loved them; and best free. All birds must fly in
their own air."
"Yes," she said. "But their freedom only means their power to choose
what air they'll fly in. And every choice is a cage too."
"I shall leave the door open, child."
"I shall never fly out," said Helen.
"You talked of going away."
"Yes. But not from you."
"Am I to go with you always, following chance and making no plans?"
"Will you? You are the only plan I ever made. Will you leave everything
else but me to chance? Perhaps it will lead us all over the earth; and
perhaps after all we shall not go very far. But I never could see
ahead, except one thing."
"What was it?"
"The mill-door and you in your old blue gown. And for seven days I've
stopped seeing that. I haven't it to steer by. Will you chance it?"
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