"Oh no, William; she felt that I had done my duty towards my neighbour,
and perhaps she felt in her own heart that I had returned good for
evil; but she did not say so. The next day Mr. Masterman called upon
us; he certainly looked very foolish and confused when he asked for his
godson, whom he had so long neglected. My mother, who felt how useful
he might be to me, received him very kindly; but I had been often told
of his neglect of me and my mother, and of his supposed unfair conduct
towards my father, and had taken a violent dislike to him; his advances
towards me were therefore very coolly received. I felt glad that I had
saved him; but although I could not exactly understand my own feelings
at the time, I am ashamed to say that my pleasure was not derived from
having done a good action, so much as indulging a feeling of revenge in
having put one under an obligation who had treated me ill; this arose
from my proud spirit, which my mother could not check. So you see,
William, there was very little merit in what I had done, as, after I
had done it, I indulged those feelings which I ought to have checked."
"I think I could not have helped feeling the same, Ready, under such
circumstances," replied William.
"The impulse which induced me to act was good," replied Ready; "but the
feeling which I indulged in afterwards took away the whole merit of the
deed. I am stating what I believe to be the truth; and an old man like
me can look upon the past without bias, but not without regret. Mr.
Masterman made but a short visit; he told my mother that he would now
take care of me and bring me up to the business of a ship-builder as
soon as I was old enough to leave school, and that in the meantime he
would pay all my expenses. My poor mother was very grateful, and shed
tears of joy; and when Mr. Masterman went away, she embraced me, and
said that now she was happy, as I should have a profession on shore and
not go to sea. I must do justice to Mr. Masterman; he kept his word and
sent money to my mother, so that she became quite cheerful and
comfortable, and everyone congratulated her, and she used to fondle me,
and say, it was all through me that she was relieved from her
distress."
"How happy that must have made you, Ready!" said William.
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