"Yes, it did, but it made me also very proud. Strange to say, I could
not conquer my dislike to Mr. Masterman; I had nourished the feeling
too long. I could not bear that my mother should be under obligations
to him, or that he should pay for my schooling; it hurt my foolish
pride, young as I then was; and although my mother was happy, I was
not. Besides, as I was put to a better school, and was obliged to
remain with the other boys, I could no longer run about the wharfs, or
go on board the vessels, as before. I did not see then, as I do now,
that it was all for my good but I became discontented and unhappy,
merely because I was obliged to pay attention to my learning, and could
no longer have my own way. The master complained of me; and Mr.
Masterman called and scolded me well. I became more disobedient, and
then I was punished. This irritated me, and I made up my mind that I
would run away to sea. You see, William, I was all in the wrong; and so
will all boys be who think they know better than those who have charge
of them; and now only see what I probably lost by my foolish conduct. I
say <i>probably</i>, for no one can calculate or foresee what is to
take place; but, as far as appearances went, I had every prospect of
receiving a good education - of succeeding Mr. Masterman in his
business, and, very probably, of inheriting his large fortune; so that
I might have been at this time a rich and well-educated man, surrounded
with all the comforts and luxuries of life; perhaps with an amiable
wife and large family round me, to make me still happier, instead of
being what I now am, a poor, worn-out old seaman upon a desert isle. I
point this out to you, William, to show how one false and foolish step
in the young may affect their whole prospects in life; and, instead of
enabling them to sail down with the stream of prosperity, may leave
them to struggle against the current of adversity, as has been the case
with me."
"It is, indeed, a good lesson, Ready," said Mr. Seagrave.
"It is; not that I repine at my lot, even while I regret the errors
that led to it. An all-wise and gracious God disposes of us as he
thinks best; and I can now say with perfect sincerity, `Thy will, not
mine, be done'."
"Your misfortunes have, however, proved an incalculable benefit to us,
Ready," observed Mrs. Seagrave; "for had you not gone to sea, and been
on board the ship when the crew deserted us, what would have become of
us?"
"Well, madam, it is some comfort to think that a worn-out old seaman
like myself has been of some use."
Chapter XXXII
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