had not known such profanation from the time of the Jameses. Talk of the
whaling captain, indeed, who had vitiated the blood of the Morrisons!
perhaps it was a judgment upon Mr. Charles for his remarks on that flaw;
for this was a thousand times worse than any whaling captain. And yet
while he groaned over the prospective humiliation, he afflicted his soul
at the same time with thoughts of how he was to manage Mrs. Charles and
her impertinent sister, who took so much upon her, and yet was not so
much as related to the Heriots. The one misery was incompatible with
the other; but yet he took the good, or rather the evil, of them both.
The existence of this doubting, questioning, perplexed, and perplexing
companion by her side was no addition to Marjory’s comfort. She
postponed her visit to the cottage for motives which she scarcely
ventured to define--foremost among which was a vague reluctance to meet
Agnes again, and to discuss with her the work which she had taken out of
her hands. In every such enterprise there comes a moment of
discouragement, of painful difficulty, of disgust even, with
circumstances which at first filled the mind only with pity and
fellow-feeling. Marjory felt that she would gladly have turned her back
on the matter altogether; she would fain have forgotten all about it
from the day when she first saw the patient face of the sick girl at the
cottage door. What had she to do with it? Such an intruder is usually
rejected, or at least held at arm’s length by “the family.” A
_mésalliance_ is seldom acknowledged or insisted upon by the sister of
the man who has made it. Sometimes it occurred to her that it was even
unmaidenly on her part to have interfered in the matter; after all, such
a marriage was, she said to herself, no marriage at all--unblessed by
religion, unhonoured by publicity, a secret expedient to make guilt less
guilty--was not that all that could be said for it? and yet what a
difference this poor formula made! Without it the girl was a lost
creature, covered with shame; with it she was surrounded by the sanctity
of a woman wronged, almost a martyr; and yet it was nothing, nothing! a
mere expedient to make guilt less guilty. This was only one of a
hundred ways in which Marjory contemplated the subject; and hers was a
woman’s view of the matter altogether, though not less forcible on that
account. The sting of these thoughts was that they had never occurred to
her before. She had committed herself in many ways--to Isabell; and
still more, to Fanshawe; she had filled the girl with false hopes, and,
perhaps, still falser hopes had been raised in the man’s mind by her
appeal to him. She had sent him out against his will, against his own
idea of what was needful--and now she repented! This is the danger of
possessing an impulsive temperament. Such disgust and discouragement
seldom come until the world has been set on fire by the hasty spirit.
Marjory felt (for the moment) that she would gladly have turned her back
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