Fanshawe stood, struck dumb, as a man of his breeding and character
could not fail to be by such a rude and foolish reception of his
message. He did not know how to reply. They spoke, as it were, another
language, of which he had no comprehension.
“I had better withdraw, I think,” he said. “I don’t know what I can add,
or reply; there is nothing, so far as I know, that I can say more.”
“Oh, I don’t doubt Marjory entrusted you with a great deal more to say!”
cried Mrs. Charles. “She wanted to humble us; but you may tell her she
sha’n’t humble us. We are people who can defend ourselves. If she isn’t
clever enough even to make up a better story than this--”
“I think,” said Fanshawe, “it would be well to leave Miss Heriot out of
the discussion; she has nothing to do with it--and, as it is evident,
that you do not in the least understand her--”
“What do you mean, Sir, by saying Mrs. Charles does not understand?”
said Hepburn, coming from his window. A burning flush covered the young
man’s face; his eyes looked hot and bloodshot, and the veins were
knotted upon his forehead; he was suffering such agonies of shame and
pain as few people, perhaps, have gone through; shame for the woman whom
he loved. Yes, though he was ashamed of her, though he perceived her
meanness, her prettiness, her folly, still he loved her. He had stood
aloof as long as he could; now, when the tugging at his heart, as well
as her impatient looks, called him to her side--when very shame impelled
him to come to her defence, to save her from her own folly, to hide from
himself the gnawing pangs of his own shame--that shame took the fiercer
form of passion. If he had worn a sword he would have drawn it; if there
had been any other foolish way of rushing into mortal conflict he would
have adopted it. It was the writhing of his own pain which excited him,
but he tried to make it look like indignation. “If you have anything to
say to Mrs. Charles, Sir,” he added fiercely, “or any objections to
make, be so good as to address yourself to me.”
“To you! why should I?” cried Fanshawe, more amazed than ever.
“Because she has given me the privilege of standing between her and all
impertinent intruders,” cried the unhappy young man, taking her hand in
an agony of self-humiliation. Poor boy! he identified himself with her
publicly at the moment when he saw most distinctly and suffered most
sharply from the revelation of her character, which, to do her justice,
she had never meant to withhold from him. He almost hated her in the
vehemence of his love; hated her for not being what he would have had
her, with a hatred which somehow intensified his passion. The sight was
so strange and painful that it subdued the impulse of anger in
Fanshawe’s mind.
“In that case,” he said gravely, “since I can neither fight with you,
nor argue with you, I will withdraw, Mr. Hepburn; and Mr. Heriot’s
communication can be made officially--if necessary, to you. Good
morning, I have no more to say.”
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