Memoirs of Bertha von Suttner: The Records of an Eventful Life (Vol. 1 of 2)Suttner, Bertha von
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Memoirs of Bertha von Suttner: The Records of an Eventful Life (Vol. 1 of 2)
Suttner, Bertha von
Peace; Suttner, Bertha von, 1843-1914; Women -- Austria -- Biography
Artur Gundaccar was the soul of these festivities. And gradually and
blissfully it dawned upon us that we loved each other. The sisters gave
their laughing benediction. The parents knew nothing about it; there
could of course be no question of our being married, so they would have
put an end to the affair most speedily. Why destroy the innocent
happiness, why banish the “Midsummer Night’s Dream” mood? And so we
guarded our secret, and the sisters helped us to guard it. It was a
delightful time. Not without melancholy, because we knew that a life
union was impossible for us; but as yet we refused to think of the
separation—for the present we would be glad in the divine gift which was
ours because our hearts kept time in their beating, because their flames
streamed together into one. Guilelessly, unselfishly, unreservedly, with
utter trust, with tender devotion, we loved each other.
From the first I had announced that in three years I was going to leave
Europe and we should be obliged to part. This was the way of it. I had
kept up a lively correspondence with my Caucasian friends and told them
of the change in my worldly circumstances. The old Princess of
Mingrelia, who had now returned home, offered to take me into her
family, but not until she had finished building and furnishing a castle
in her home town of Zugdidi. The old castle, which the prince had
furnished in European style and with great magnificence, had been
destroyed by the Turkish bands when the Dedopali was compelled to take
flight, and now she had in mind to build a new one still finer.
I had seen the plans and had often been told the details of the
decoration. There was a hall in Persian style, another in the style of
Louis XIV; furniture and hangings and works of art the princess had
gradually acquired during her residence in Europe, and had dispatched
them to Zugdidi. Enormous packing cases were piled up there and were
waiting to be opened. Once I myself was charged with procuring something
for her: a big music box (I might go as high as fifteen thousand francs)
which should play orchestral pieces. I remember that I had Artur go with
me to make this purchase. A music box was wound up and played a waltz as
a test.
“Perhaps I shall dance to this waltz in Zugdidi,” I said.
“As if I would let you go!”
“It will have to be; I have made up my mind.”
“Let us not talk about it.”
I had also kept up a correspondence with Salomé. She lived in the
vicinity of Paris and was now the mother of a second little boy. The
Empress Eugénie was his godmother, and he was christened Napoleon.
Nikolaus of Mingrelia was aide to the Emperor of Russia and living in
St. Petersburg. Here is a letter which the princess wrote from a halting
place in her journey to her home land:
Yalta, September 12, 1873
My dear Contessina,
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