Autobiographical fiction; Bildungsromans; England -- Fiction; Feminist fiction; Love stories; Sex role -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
'That she had, a few days since, received a letter from the
person to whom the legacy of her son devolved, should he
fail in observing the prescribed conditions of the testator:
that this letter gave her notice, that those conditions had
already been infringed, Mr Harley having contracted a
marriage, three years before, with a foreigner, with whom
he had become acquainted during his travels; that this
marriage had been kept a secret, and, but very lately, by an
accidental concurrence of circumstances, revealed to the
person most concerned in the detection. Undoubted proofs of
the truth of this information could be produced; it would
therefore be most prudent in her son to resign his claims,
without putting himself, and the legal heir, to unnecessary
expence and litigation. Ignorant of the residence of Mr
Harley, the writer troubled his mother to convey to him
these particulars.'
The paper dropped from my hand, the colour forsook my lips and
cheeks;--yet I neither wept, nor fainted. Mrs Denbeigh took my
hands--they were frozen--the blood seemed congealed in my veins--and I
sat motionless--my faculties suspended, stunned, locked up! My friend
spake to me--embraced, shed tears over, me--but she could not excite
mine;--my mind was pervaded by a sense of confused misery. I remained
many days in this situation--it was a state, of which I have but a
feeble remembrance; and I, at length, awoke from it, as from a
troublesome dream.
With returning reason, the tide of recollection also returned. Oh!
how complicated appeared to me the guilt of Augustus! Ignorant of his
situation, I had been unconsciously, and perseveringly, exerting myself
to seduce the affections of a _husband_ from his _wife_. He had made
me almost criminal in my own eyes--he had risqued, at once, by a
disingenuous and cruel reserve, the virtue and the happiness of three
beings. What is virtue, but a calculation of _the consequences of our
actions_? Did we allow ourselves to reason on this principle, to reflect
on its truth and importance, we should be compelled to shudder at many
parts of our conduct, which, _taken unconnectedly_, we have habituated
ourselves to consider as almost indifferent. Virtue can exist only in a
mind capable of taking comprehensive views. How criminal, then, is
ignorance!
During this sickness of the soul, Mr Francis, who had occasionally
visited me since my residence in town, called, repeatedly, to enquire
after my welfare; expressing a friendly concern for my indisposition. I
saw him not--I was incapable of seeing any one--but, informed by my kind
hostess of his humane attentions, soothed by the idea of having yet
a friend who seemed to interest himself in my concerns, I once more
had recourse to my pen (Mrs Denbeigh having officiously placed the
implements of writing in my way), and addressed him in the wild and
incoherent language of despair.
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