Memoirs of Fanny Hill: A New and Genuine Edition from the Original Text (London, 1749)Cleland, John
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Memoirs of Fanny Hill: A New and Genuine Edition from the Original Text (London, 1749)
Cleland, John
England -- Fiction; Erotic fiction; Prostitutes -- Fiction
In the mean time, poor William was frightened out of his senses, and,
as much need as I had of spirits myself, I was obliged to employ them
all to keep his a little up. The misfortune I had now brought upon him,
endeared him the more to me, and I could have joyfully suffered any
punishment he had not shared in. I watered, plentifully, with my tears,
the face of the frightened youth, who sat, not having strength to
stand, as cold and as lifeless as a statue.
Presently Mr. H.... comes in to us again, and made us go before him
into the dining room, trembling and dreading the issue, Mr. H.....sat
down on a chair whilst we stood like criminals under examination; and,
beginning with me, asked me, with an even firm tone of voice, neither
soft nor severe, but cruelly indifferent, what I could say for myself,
for having abused him in so unworthy a manner, with his own servant
too, and how he had deserved this of me?
Without adding to the guilt of my infidelity, that of an audacious
defence of it, in the old style of a common kept miss, my answer was
modest, and often interrupted by my tears, in substance as follows:
“That I never had a single thought of wronging him” (which was true),
“till I had seen him taking the last liberties with my servant wench”
(here he coloured prodigiously), “and that my resentment at that, which
I was over-awed from giving vent to by complaints, or explanations with
him, had driven me to a course that I did not pretend to justify; but
that as to the young man, he was entirely faultless; for that, in the
view of making him the instrument of my revenge, I had down right
seduced him to what he had done; and therefore hoped, whatever he
determined about me, he would distinguish between the guilty and the
innocent; and that; for the rest, I was entirely at his mercy.”
Mr. H.... on hearing what I said, hung his head a little; but instantly
recovering himself, he said to me, as near as I can retain, to the
following purpose:
“Madam, I owe shame to myself, and confess you have fairly turned the
tables upon me. It is not with one of your cast of breeding and
sentiments, that I allow you so much reason on your side, as great
difference of the provocations: be it sufficient that I should enter
into a discussion of the very to have changed my resolution, in
consideration of what you reproach me with; and I own, too, that your
clearing that rascal there, is fair and honest in you. Renew with you I
cannot: the affront is too gross. I give you a week’s warning to get
out of these lodgings; whatever I have given you, remains to you; and
as I never intend to see you more, the landlord will pay you fifty
pieces on my account, with which, and every debt paid, I hope you will
own I do not leave you in a worse condition than what I took you up in,
or that you deserve of me. Blame yourself only that it is no better.”
Then, without giving me time to reply, he addressed himself to the
young fellow:
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