“First, let me note His mercies _ministerial_, in the success of my labours at Chunar; where a society of fourteen are united in the ways of God; second, _personal_, in the preservation of life, and the vouchsafing of excellent health; the bringing my sister, who is now with me, and promises to be indeed a helpmeet for me. Third, _spiritual_, inasmuch as the Holy Spirit is not withdrawn from me; nor has the purpose of living only to God forsaken me: I see that nothing is worth living for, but to live to God. I determine, the Lord being my helper, to live to no other purpose.... I am not so watchful of myself as formerly; but I renew my purposes, would do my first works, and go on unto perfection. I seem, as far as I know myself, kept from the love of wealth; but this is, in some degree at least, from lavishness, which hurries me often into the other extreme: against this, too, do I resolve; and would use this world’s goods as one that must give an account. The work of the Lord among the heathen shall be attended to, with fresh vigour. I can say nothing of the Hindoostanees at Chunar, nor of the Schools; but I hope to do more for them than ever. O Lord, let past mercies be remembered, as a constraining motive to future exertion; and, whilst I would mourn for my sins and short-coming, O keep me in time to come for Christ’s sake. Amen.” Under the date of Chunar, Jan. 24, 1809, he writes, “Have been at home ten days, and I trust have not been quite forgetful of the goodness of God, in taking me out and bringing me back in safety: but I feel and deplore my hard heartedness and corruption. On Sunday week resumed duty at Secrole, twenty attended. Here, on Sunday last, five services have renewed something of my former pain in the breast. But, alas! my labours seem all to have been in vain. Not one seems to have stood his ground. My heart is greatly cast down, and would fain shrink from any further trial. Self and worldliness combine to dishearten me from the work of the Lord. O Lord, leave me not, but revive thy work in me for Jesus’ sake! Amen.” In a letter addressed to Mr. Buckworth on the 8th. of Feb; Mr. C. gives utterance to similar feelings of discomfort:--