“June 10th. This day nine years ago, I was ordained a deacon; and on the twelfth of June, two years after, a priest. I have sinned grievously in respect of personal holiness; and, during the last year, also, I fear, as much as ever. I know not what to do against my strong foe, ‘whose name is legion.’ The Lord knows I purpose perpetual enmity with every sin; and, I think, if it were the will of God to take away every disposition to evil, I should rejoice; but, at the same time, should require such measures of grace to keep me humble, as seem out of the way of God’s usual method to bestow. Indeed, when I feel such a disposition to self-importance in a very short time, if my evil dispositions are quiet, what devilish pride should I not be puffed up with, if my heart were freed from corruption. Blessed be God, I can say, that no sin hath dominion over me; yet do I not justify myself: though I am often surprised, and get a spiritual fall, yet the enemy cannot keep me down: by faith I rise, by faith I stand; and ‘in the Lord have I righteousness and strength.’ I have been at Cawnpore about a year; and since October have had the whole charge: ten are added to the (religious) society since then; and several are enquiring after the ways of godliness. Some of the light dragoons, (especially sergeant R.) are, I hope, seriously impressed. Gracious God, I praise Thee for these fruits! I have to mourn my unprofitableness among the better sort. I think I am not suited to do good by much visiting, and, therefore, stay at home. I have been employed a great deal in translating for the children; and Nicholas is very hopeful: these in all are six, besides those who came yesterday. God of all grace, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, give me a larger portion of the Holy Spirit’s grace: make me holy in body, soul, and spirit; ‘holiness becometh thy house.’ O Lord, my soul is athirst for holiness. Teach me how to preach holiness through the Spirit, and by the Saviour! But, I am forbidden by the doctors to preach, on account of this liver. May I pray the more for the souls around me: O for a spirit of grace and supplication! To Thee, O Lord, have I dedicated myself; at thy table, yesterday, did I give myself away to Thee; and, though the watchful enemy robbed me of part of the benefit, yet, I know, thou hast accepted me: Thou didst sit at thine own table; it was a season of refreshment to many, as well as to myself; about fifty attended; in the evening, a large congregation. I hope soon to establish worship for the Hindoostanees; James, I trust, is fully bent on this work, though he has a good deal of youthful levity about him. Lord, bless all my flock, my dear family, and friends! Bless my soul, O Lord,