“Agra, Sep. 19, 1813. To-morrow will complete to me seven years in India. Many mercies have attended me, and many instances of God’s gracious dealings, which ought to be had in remembrance, to His praise, and my own comfort and encouragement. The death of Mr. Brown, and afterwards of Mr. Martyn, deprived me of two pillars on whom I leaned partly for so long a time: and to this hour I feel my earthly masters to be taken away from me. There is now none on earth, to whom I look for guidance as to what I should do in my ministry. For a time this discouraged me; but the Lord mercifully made my way plain, and his work here is going on with seeming success. For this work Abdool Messeeh was raised up, and qualified, and sent of God. He is eminently humble, teachable, persevering, and zealous. Two were baptized from the heathen on July 25: and eight more, with three of their children, on August 25. There are now many catechumens, and upwards of ninety children in school, at three places. Keeping the journal of Abdool’s labours, has interrupted my private journal; though, after all, they are quite distinct. In general, my mind has been too much occupied in the outward work. I have lived too little in the habit of ejaculatory prayer; and contented myself with very little of spirituality of mind; so that if success had depended on me, it must utterly have failed. But the spiritual temple grows up ‘not by might, or by power,’ but by the Spirit of the Lord. Oh may he carry on his work within, and enable me to grow up into Christ in all things. I have engaged too largely in expences, considering the natural claims upon me. The schools and native christians stand me in not less than 300 Rs. monthly; while building &c. is likely to involve me in debt. The heart of Mr. B. was, indeed, mercifully disposed to give _Kuttra_; and help is promised from other quarters, and I doubt not but the Lord will provide, since, I think, I seek not my own vain glory, but His worthy praise and honour. For some days past, I have experienced a sensible return of the liver complaint. What this may be the forerunner of, I know not. It would be a painful trial to cease from labour now, though that may be needful to try my humility, whilst, Oh what may it prove to my European flock! Who shall speak to them, or make known the way of salvation? Lord! direct me in this matter. Enable me to give myself to meditation and prayer: and grant me to know and do thy will.... Praised be thy name, who hast kept me in my purpose respecting coming to India. The love of souls, more than of wealth, or earthly honour, I trust, still, through grace, predominates; and may grace reign in my soul, through righteousness, unto eternal life, through Jesus Christ.”