Memories of My Life: Being My Personal, Professional, and Social Recollections as Woman and ArtistBernhardt, Sarah
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Memories of My Life: Being My Personal, Professional, and Social Recollections as Woman and Artist
Bernhardt, Sarah
Actors -- Biography; Bernhardt, Sarah, 1844-1923; Women -- Biography
“Well, do as you like, I shall not leave without my box!” With the help
of Charles Haas and of Arthur Meyer, we put my grandmother on Sohège’s
back, in spite of herself. He was of medium height, and she was
extremely tall, so that her long legs touched the ground, and I was
afraid she might get them injured. Sohège, therefore, took her in his
arms, and Charles Haas carried her legs. We then set off, but the smoke
stifled us, and after descending about ten stairs I fell down in a
faint.
When I came to myself, I was in my mother’s bed. My little boy was
asleep in my sister’s room, and my grandmother was installed in a large
armchair. She sat bolt upright, frowning, and with an angry expression
on her lips. She did not trouble about anything but her box, until at
last my mother was angry, and reproached her severely in Dutch with only
caring for herself. She answered excitedly, and her neck craned forward,
as though to help her head to peer through the perpetual darkness which
surrounded her. Her thin body wrapped in an Indian shawl of many colors,
the hissing of her strident words, which flowed freely, all contributed
to make her resemble a serpent in some terrible nightmare. My mother did
not like this woman, who had married my grandfather when he had six big
children, the eldest of whom was sixteen and the youngest, my uncle,
five years. This second wife had never had any children of her own, and
she had been indifferent and even hard toward those of her husband, and
consequently she was not liked in the family. I had taken her in because
smallpox had broken out in the family with whom she had been boarding.
She had then wished to stay with me, and I had not had courage enough to
oppose her. On the occasion of the fire, though, I considered she
behaved so badly that a strong dislike to her came over me, and I
resolved not to have her any longer in my house.
News of the fire was brought to us. It continued to rage, and burned
everything in my flat, absolutely everything, even to the very last book
in my library. My greatest trouble was that I lost a magnificent
portrait of my mother by Bassompierre Severin, a pastelist very much in
vogue under the Empire; an oil portrait of my father, and a very pretty
pastel of my sister Jeanne. I had not much jewelry, and all that was
found of the bracelet given to me by the Emperor was a huge shapeless
mass which I still have. I had a very pretty diadem, set with diamonds
and pearls, given to me by Kabil Bey, after a performance at his house.
The ashes of this had to be riddled in order to find the stones. The
diamonds were there, but the pearls had melted.
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