Memories of My Life: Being My Personal, Professional, and Social Recollections as Woman and ArtistBernhardt, Sarah
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Memories of My Life: Being My Personal, Professional, and Social Recollections as Woman and Artist
Bernhardt, Sarah
Actors -- Biography; Bernhardt, Sarah, 1844-1923; Women -- Biography
Finally, we came within sight of Hombourg. Twenty more minutes of this
turning of wheels and we entered the station. But just as though all the
spirites and devils from the infernal regions had concerted to torture
my patience, we stopped short. All heads were out of the windows. “What
is it?” “What’s the matter?” “Why are we not going on?” There was a
train in front of us at a standstill, with a broken brake, and the line
had to be cleared. I fell back on my seat, clenching my teeth and hands
and looking up in the air to distinguish the evil spirits which were so
bent on tormenting me, and then I resolutely closed my eyes. I muttered
some invectives against the invisible sprites, and declared that as I
would not suffer any more, I was now going to rest. I then fell fast
asleep, for the power of sleeping when I wish is a precious gift which
God has bestowed on me. In the most frightful circumstances and the most
cruel moments of life, when I have felt that my reason was giving way
under shocks that have been too great or too painful, my will has laid
hold of my reason, just as one holds a bad-tempered little dog that
wants to bite, and subjugating it, my will has said to my reason:
“Enough, you can take up again to-morrow your suffering and your plans,
your anxiety, your sorrow and your anguish. You have had enough for
to-day. You would give way altogether under the weight of so many
troubles, and you would drag me along with you. I will not have it! We
will forget everything for a while and go to sleep together!” And I have
gone to sleep. This is absolutely true.
Mlle. Soubise roused me as soon as the train had really arrived. I was
refreshed and calmer. A minute later we were in a carriage, and had
given the address: 7 Obere Strasse.
We were soon there, and I found all my adored ones, big and little, and
they were all very well. Oh, what happiness it was! The blood pulsed in
all my arteries. I had suffered so much that I burst out into delicious
sobs.
Who can ever describe the infinite pleasure of tears of joy! During the
next two days the maddest things occurred, which I will not relate, so
incredible would they sound. Among others, fire broke out in the house;
we had to escape in our night clothes, camp out for six hours in five
feet of snow, etc., etc., but everyone was safe and sound.
We then set out for Paris, but on arriving at St. Denis there were no
more trains. It was four o’clock in the morning. The Germans were
masters of all the suburbs of Paris and the trains ran only for their
service. After an hour spent in running about, in discussions and
rebuffs, I found an officer of higher rank, who was better educated and
more agreeable. He had a locomotive prepared to take me to the Gare du
Hâvre.
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