Artists -- Fiction; English fiction -- 20th century; Jews -- England -- London -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
Mendel was lost in thought. He was baffled by this association of art
with things like politics and music-halls, which he had always
accepted as part of the world's constitution but essentially
unimportant. He had no organized mental life. His ideas came direct
from his instincts to his mind, and were either used for immediate
purposes or dropped back again to return when wanted. However, he
recognized the passionate nervous energy that made Logan's words full
and round, and he was glad to have him so accessible and so eager and
purposeful. On the whole, it did not matter to him why Logan thought
his work so important. No one else thought it so, and certainly no one
else had taken so much trouble to help it to find recognition. Logan
seemed to promise him public fame, and that would delight and reassure
his father and mother more than anything else. They treasured every
mention of his name in the newspapers, pasted the cuttings in a book,
and produced it for every visitor to the house.
Struggling for ideas with which to match Logan's, he became
instinctively aware that his friend's enthusiasm was deliberate, not
in itself faked, but artificially heated. Behind it lay a deeper
passion, from which he was endeavouring to divert the energy it
claimed.
Sitting between Logan and Oliver, Mendel could almost intercept the
current of feeling that ran between them. It offended him as an
indecency that they should have so little control over themselves as
to reveal their condition of mutual obsession. . . . It reminded him
of his impression of the police-court, where the secret sores of
society were exposed nakedly, and queer, helpless, shameless,
unrestrained creatures were dealt with almost like parcels in a shop.
And again he had the sensation of being bound to them, of being
confined with them in that little room, of a dead pressure being upon
him, until he must scream or go mad.
He looked at them. Did they not feel it too? Logan was lying back with
his hands beneath his head and his lips pressed together and a scowl
on his face, looking as though his thoughts and his destiny were
almost, but, of course, not quite too much for him. Oliver was looking
out of the window with her hands on her hips, humming. She laughed and
said:--
"I'd sooner live with an undertaker than an artist. He would be up to
a bit of fun sometimes, and he'd do his work without making such a
fuss about it."
"There's an undertaker at the corner of the next street. You'd better
ask him to take you on."
"As a corpse?" asked Mendel, exploding and spluttering at what seemed
to him a very good joke. The others turned and looked at him solemnly,
but neither of them laughed, and gradually his amusement subsided and
he said lamely:--
"I thought it was very funny."
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