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Within himself he knew there was a most vivid light glowing, a spark
which only needed a breath of air upon it to burst into flame. He was
increasingly conscious of it, and it made him feel transparent, as
though nothing could be hidden from those who looked his way. What was
there to hide? If there was evil, it lived but a little while and was
soon spent, while that which was of worth endured and grew under
recognition.
Thence came his devotion to Logan, who simply ignored everything that
apparently gave offence to others and saluted the rare, rich activity.
It was nothing to Logan that he was a Jew and poor and uneducated: he
was educated in art, and what more did he want? Logan was a friend
indeed, and had proved it over and over again. He would take his
doubts to Logan and they would be healed, but first he must go to the
exhibition, the thought of which made him unhappy and uneasy.
Cluny received him with open arms:--
"A most successful exhibition. A great success. I hope you will let me
have some of your work by me. A most charming exhibition. There was
only one mistake, if I may say so: the _Ruth._"
Mendel walked miserably through the rooms. All Logan's pictures were
in the best light: his own were half in shadow.
"Mr. Logan has the making of a great reputation," said Cluny, "a very
great reputation."
"Oh, very clever!" said Mendel, suddenly exasperated more by Logan's
pictures than by the dealer.
Indeed, "very clever" was the right description for Logan's work. It
attracted and charmed and tickled, but it did not satisfy. The
pictures gave Mendel the same odd sense of familiarity as the picture
in Camden Town had done, and turning suddenly, his eye fell on his own
unhappy _Ruth_. The figure was shockingly bad. He acknowledged the
simpering sentimentality of the face. And he had been trying to paint
love! But in spite of the figure, the picture held him. It was to him
the matrix of the whole exhibition. Wiping out of consideration his
own early drawings, it explained and accounted for every other piece
of work. The least dexterous of them all, it had freshness and
vitality and a certain thrust of simplification which everything else
lacked. It was "solid," and worth all Logan's pictures put together.
"Very good prices," said the dealer. "Very good indeed."
Mendel paid no attention to him. He wanted to study his _Ruth_, to
find out its precise meaning for him, and, if possible, in what
mysterious part of his talent it had originated.
It had made him feel happy again and had restored his confidence. He
was serenely sure of himself, without arrogance. He was almost humble,
yet tantalized because he could not think of a whole picture in the
terms of that one piece of paint. He remembered the strange excitement
in which he had conceived it, the almost nonchalance with which he had
executed it. And to think that not a soul had seen it! The fools! The
fools!
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