Lewis Ross and his sister walked home together in silence and
alienation. Lewis was sullenly indignant, while Anne, still overpowered
by that whirl of agitation, pain and fear, felt grateful for Duncan's
officious attendance with his lanthorn, which precluded any conversation
of a private kind, between her brother and herself. In her first shock
and bewilderment, she knew not what to do--whether to communicate her
secret at once, or to delay until she herself knew the terrible story
more perfectly. She determined on the latter course, before they reached
Merkland, and pained still further by her brother's averted looks, and
sullen silence, whispered: "Lewis, forgive me, I knew not what I was
doing," as they entered the house. Lewis took no notice, but went
angrily into the parlor, in which his mother usually sat. A fit of
ill-humor had prevented Mrs. Ross from accompanying them to the
Tower--the same cause had afflicted her with headache, and sent her to
her room, full two hours before they returned home, and to Anne's
satisfaction, there was no family intercourse of any kind that night.
Once safe in the shelter of her own apartment, she sat through the dead
hours of that chill January night, laboring to form some plan for her
further proceedings. She could not concentrate her mind upon
them--shooting off, now here, now there, those floods of distempered
thoughts refused that bondage--now called back from a long and vivid
picturing of Norman's desolate and hopeless way, and Norman's blighted
life--now from recalling in strange caprice the girlish gaiety and sunny
future of Alice Aytoun, dwelling upon its bright particulars, as if to
exaggerate the gloom that now lowered over the gladness of those
youthful days. The host of indefinite and conflicting purposes, which
terminated all these discursive wanderings of thought, would not be
reconciled. Crowding about her like so many phantoms, they even stifled
the voice of her appeal to that One counsellor from whom it was Anne
Ross's constant wont to seek wisdom and guidance. Confused words,
meaningless and often repeated, swelled up from her heart, constantly--a
mere vacant cry of agony--for her mind was wandering all the while, from
point to point, in aimless and bewildered speed.
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