Great Britain -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Historical fiction
stalking each other across some land of sand-dunes and hollows, creeping
closer to each other, always closer. She felt as if she would have
gladly given herself over to an eternity of torment, if only they could
have had one hour more, all three of them, together here, as on that
night of stars and peace when first there came the news which for the
moment had disquieted Hermann.
She longed as with thirst for Michael to come, and as her solitude
became more and more intolerable, a hundred hideous fancies obsessed
her. What if some accident had happened to Michael, or what, if in this
tremendous breaking of ties that the war entailed, he felt that he could
not see her? She knew that was an impossibility; but the whole world had
become impossible. And there was no escape. Somehow she had to adjust
herself to the unthinkable; somehow her relations both with Hermann and
Michael had to remain absolutely unshaken. Even that was not enough:
they had to be strengthened, made impregnable.
Then came a knock on the side door of the studio that led into the
street: Michael often came that way without passing through the house,
and with a sense of relief she ran to it and unlocked it. And even as
he stepped in, before any word of greeting had been exchanged, she flung
herself on him, with fingers eager for the touch of his solidity. . . .
“Oh, my dear,” she said. “I have longed for you, just longed for you.
I never wanted you so much. I have been sitting in the dark
desolate--desolate. And oh! my darling, what a beast I am to think of
nothing but myself. I am ashamed. What of your mother, Michael?”
She turned on the light as they walked back across the studio, and
Michael saw that her eyes, which were a little dazzled by the change
from the dark into the light, were dim with unshed tears, and her hands
clung to him as never before had they clung. She needed him now with
that imperative need which in trouble can only turn to love for comfort.
She wanted that only; the fact of him with her, in this land in which
she had suddenly become an alien, an enemy, though all her friends
except Hermann were here. And instantaneously, as a baby at the breast,
she found that all his strength and serenity were hers.
They sat down on the sofa by the piano, side by side, with hands
intertwined before Michael answered. He looked up at her as he spoke,
and in his eyes was the quiet of love and death.
“My mother died an hour ago,” he said. “I was with her, and as I had
longed might happen, she came back to me before she died. For two or
three minutes she was herself. And then she said to me, ‘My son,’ and
soon she ceased breathing.”
“Oh, Michael,” she said, and for a little while there was silence, and
in turn it was her presence that he clung to. Presently he spoke again.
“Sylvia, I’m so frightfully hungry,” he said. “I don’t think I’ve eaten
anything since breakfast. May we go and forage?”
“Oh, you poor thing!” she cried. “Yes, let’s go and see what there is.”
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