Historical fiction; Hungarian fiction -- Translations into English; Transylvania (Romania) -- History -- Fiction
Banfi looked sadly at his wife. Now that he was no longer free to
approach her, he saw what a heaven he had possessed in that noble and
lovely being. She stood before him with downcast eyes, so sorrowful and
yet so mild.
In her heart, too, many traitorous thoughts pleaded for her husband;
wounded pride, that unbending judge, was already beginning to waver. In
a noble breast it is not hate but grief that takes the place of love.
Banfi drew nearer to his wife, seized her hand, and pressed it in his
own. He felt that her hand trembled, but he also felt that it did not
return his pressure.
He went still further. He tenderly pressed her to him, and kissed her
forehead, cheeks, and lips. She suffered his caresses but did not return
them. But if only she had looked up into her husband's eyes, she would
have seen them glistening with two tears as sincere as ever repentant
sinner shed.
Banfi, with a deep sigh, sat down in an armchair, still holding
Margaret's hand in his own; it needed but a single tender word from his
wife, and he would have flung himself at her feet and wept like a
remorseful child. Instead of that, Dame Banfi, with self-denying
affectation, said to her husband--
"Do you wish to remain in this room, and shall I go into the other?"
The icy tone of these words cut Banfi to the heart. His broad breast
heaved a deep sigh, his eyes looked sorrowfully at Margaret's joyless
face--to him a closed paradise. He rose gravely from his seat, pressed
his wife's hand to his lips, whispered her a scarcely audible
good-night, and tottered into the adjoining room, closing the door
behind him.
Dame Banfi set about disrobing, but on casting a glance at the lonely
couch, a painful feeling overcame her. She threw herself sobbing on the
pillows, and then, finding no rest for her soul there, she stood up
again, drew a chair in front of the fire, sat down, and burying her face
in her hands indulged in brooding, melancholy, dreamy thoughts.
And can there be any greater grief than when the heart fights against
its own conviction; when a woman can no longer conceal from herself that
the ideal of her love, him whom, after God, she loves the most, is after
all only a common, ordinary mortal?--that he whom she has loved so nobly
deserves nothing but her contempt? And yet she cannot but love him! She
feels she ought to hate him, yet she cannot bear the thought of being
without him. She would fain die for him, and the opportunity of dying
will not come.
A single unlocked door separates her from him. They are only a few steps
apart. How small the distance, and yet how great! She can hear him
sighing. He too cannot sleep while he is so near to her whom he has so
deeply wounded. What bliss it would be to traverse those few steps, to
nestle side by side, to gratify each other's longings! But
reconciliation is impossible; her heart yearns after it and recoils from
it, loves and loathes at the same moment.
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