Miss Ayr of Virginia, & other storiesMagruder, Julia
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Miss Ayr of Virginia, & other stories
Magruder, Julia
Short stories, American; United States -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
When night came at last, and the child had gone to sleep, and Ethel was
alone in her little room that opened into his, she softly closed the
door between them, and gave herself up to the luxury of a good cry.
It was one of the few luxuries within her reach; she did not often
indulge herself in this, but to-night she felt she must. It was this
craving for sympathy which brought it on her--the passionate wish
that somebody understood her and was aware of the struggle she made
continually, by day and by night, to still the craving of her heart for
love. She loved Bobby, but he was an unceasing care to her, and she
wanted somebody to care for her, as she cared for him. If she had, how
ardently grateful would she be for such care and protection--and how
little he seemed to respond to or appreciate it! Of course, it was not
to be expected of a crippled boy, continually preoccupied by pain, and,
as a rule, she never thought of expecting it. But to-night she felt
that need of being understood swelling up within her so passionately,
that it seemed almost more than she could bear.
When she had cried until there seemed to be no more tears left to shed,
she got up and went to the old dressing-table to prepare for bed. She
looked at herself, half bitterly, as she realized how useless all those
foolish tears had been. She might as well make up her mind that her
lot in life was to be drudgery and disappointment, and that no one
would ever really understand her or enter into the feelings of her
heart.
She pulled open a drawer to get something out, and as she did so she
remembered the manuscript. She took it out and looked at the cold,
unsympathetic typewriting on the back. It was foolish of her to shrink
from opening it, and she would compel herself to look once more at
those poor pages which she had written with such heart throbbings, and
sent off with such hopes.
Running a hairpin along the edge of the sealed envelope, she cut it
open and drew the contents out. How was this? They looked unfamiliar.
There was no binding with blue ribbons, no delicate woman-writing.
Instead, she held in her hands a number of loose sheets covered with
the strong, distinct, nervous characters of a man’s hand. The title of
this manuscript was _The Draught Divine_. The title of hers had been
_The Soul-Thirst_. The caption under the title was exactly the one that
she had put under hers:
“The thirst which from the soul doth rise
Doth ask a draught divine.”
But for this coincidence she would probably have suspected some mistake
at the editorial office and put the manuscript by; but after seeing
this, she felt that she must read it.
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