Miss Billy — MarriedPorter, Eleanor H. (Eleanor Hodgman)
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Miss Billy — Married
Porter, Eleanor H. (Eleanor Hodgman)
Domestic fiction; Marriage -- Fiction; Married women -- Fiction
“Oh, but I didn't know, I didn't know,” she moaned, twisting her hands
nervously. “And now, when you've been so brave, so true--for me to
accuse you of--Oh, can you _ever_ forgive me? But you see, knowing that
you _did_ care for her, it did look--” She choked into silence, and
turned away her head.
He glanced at her tenderly, mournfully.
“Yes,” he said, after a minute, in a low voice. “I can see how it did
look; and so I'm going to tell you now something I had meant never to
tell you. There really couldn't have been anything in that, you see,
for I found out long ago that it was gone--whatever love there had been
for--Billy.”
“But your--tiger skin!”
“Oh, yes, I thought it was alive,” smiled Arkwright, sadly, “when I
asked you to help me fight it. But one day, very suddenly, I discovered
that it was nothing but a dead skin of dreams and memories. But I made
another discovery, too. I found that just beyond lay another one, and
that was very much alive.”
“Another one?” Alice turned to him in wonder. “But you never asked me to
help you fight--that one!”
He shook his head.
“No; I couldn't, you see. You couldn't have helped me. You'd only have
hindered me.”
“Hindered you?”
“Yes. You see, it was my love for--you, that I was fighting--then.”
Alice gave a low cry and flushed vividly; but Arkwright hurried on, his
eyes turned away.
“Oh, I understand. I know. I'm not asking for--anything. I heard some
time ago of your engagement to Calderwell. I've tried many times to
say the proper, expected pretty speeches, but--I couldn't. I will
now, though. I do. You have all my tenderest best wishes for your
happiness--dear. If long ago I hadn't been such a blind fool as not to
know my own heart--”
“But--but there's some mistake,” interposed Alice, palpitatingly, with
hanging head. “I--I'm not engaged to Mr. Calderwell.”
Arkwright turned and sent a keen glance into her face.
“You're--not?”
“No.”
“But I heard that Calderwell--” He stopped helplessly.
“You heard that Mr. Calderwell was engaged, very likely. But--it so
happens he isn't engaged--to me,” murmured Alice, faintly.
“But, long ago you said--” Arkwright paused, his eyes still keenly
searching her face.
“Never mind what I said--long ago,” laughed Alice, trying unsuccessfully
to meet his gaze. “One says lots of things, at times, you know.”
Into Arkwright's eyes came a new light, a light that plainly needed but
a breath to fan it into quick fire.
“Alice,” he said softly, “do you mean that maybe now--I needn't try to
fight--that other tiger skin?”
There was no answer.
Arkwright reached out a pleading hand.
“Alice, dear, I've loved you so long,” he begged unsteadily. “Don't
you think that sometime, if I was very, very patient, you could just
_begin_--to care a little for me?”
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