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She sat suddenly upright. "An infant! She will be twenty-three in
June. And I--I am sixty-five. Your life, as you said, is before you,
yours and hers. Mine is behind, but in the little of mine left I
need her. Will you hold off for a while? Listen! she doesn't know
she loves you. Doesn't know the reason she has never loved any one
else is because there is but one man in her life, and that is you.
I didn't want to tell you this, didn't want you to know it, don't
want her to know it--yet. She is a child still, though so verily a
woman in much. She has owned you since that first visit you made to
Michigan, a big, awkward, red-faced boy of seventeen, with the same
fearless eyes you've got now and the same determined mouth. You've
told me about it and she's told me about it and how all you said at
first was 'How'd do, Mary? I'm here.' And you've been 'here' ever
since. Don't you see she takes you for granted? The best of women
will do that and never guess how rare a thing is a strong man's
love. For you there's but one woman in the world, but a woman is
the strangest thing God's made yet, and there are no rules by which
to understand her. And you don't understand Mary. Until she does
what it is in her heart to do here--gets rid of some of the
regulations that use to enrage her as a child, starts flowers where
are weeds, and opens eyes that are shut--she couldn't be happy. But
listen! I am going to tell you what for cold, hard years I pretended
not to believe. A woman's heart never ceases to long for the love
that makes her first in life, and after a while Mary will know her
arms were meant to hold children of her own."
For a moment there was silence, and then Miss Gibbie spoke again.
"Let her alone, John. Let her find for herself that the best
community mother should be the woman who has borne children and
knows the depths of human experience are needed to reach its heights.
She has her own ideas of service; so have I. Mine are that most people
you try to help are piggy and grunt if you happen to step on their
toes. She says they grunt only when the stepping is not by accident,
and the pigginess is often with the people who help. As benefactors
they want to own the benefactored. Perhaps they do. She knows much
more of the behind-the-scenes of life than I do. But I know some
things she doesn't, and a good many you don't. If I didn't like you,
boy, I wouldn't tell you what I'm going to tell you, and that is,
stay away and let her miss you. I'd tell you to keep on and nag her
to death, and make her despise you for your weakness. She'll never
marry a man she doesn't respect, even if she loved him, and love
is by no means dependent on respect."
Miss Gibbie nibbled the tip of her turkey-wing fan for a moment of
stillness, unbroken save for the twitter of birds in the trees near
by, then turned once more to the man by her side.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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