City and town life -- Fiction; Gossip -- Fiction; Virginia -- Fiction
She stopped. Her handkerchief, twisted into a tight cord, was
knotted nervously. "I can't talk of it. I had waited so long, I
wanted a child, a little child of my own, that there was nothing
I would not have suffered. But to go down into the valley of the
shadow--and come back with empty arms--" She drew in her breath,
but her eyes were dry. "Even Mr. Burnham didn't understand. He
was distressed and disappointed, but because I got well nothing
else seemed to matter much. But he didn't know--no man can know--
the awful ache in your heart, the awful emptiness of your arms
when your baby is taken out of them. One day everything in me seemed
to stop. I couldn't feel, or think, or talk. Mr. Burnham must have
been frightened, for he got up suddenly and left the room. After a
while he came back, then left again, and a few minutes later the
door opened and closed, and Mary Cary was inside. As she came
toward me I saw she had on no coat or hat. And then she was on her
knees by my bed, and I was in her arms and held close to her heart.
"Oh, I can't tell--" Her voice broke in a half-sob she tried to
smother. "No one can ever know what it meant to me, but I knew
she understood, and suddenly the something that had been tight
and cruel snapped, and for the first time tears came."
"I understand, child. I understand." Miss Gibbie patted the
twisting hands softly. "Every woman has a corner in her heart she
keeps covered. And the thing in life that's hardest is to hold your
head up and smile and hide the ache. But it must be held up. That's
the woman's part. I'm glad you and Mary are good friends. She tells
me you and Mr. Burnham have been a great help to her, and she needs
the help you and he can give. I'm about as much use as a shoestring
for a buttoned boot. Never could stand smeary people with bad teeth.
But possibly I wouldn't take a bath every day, either, if I didn't
have a clean tub and hot water, with good soap and towels. Mary says
I wouldn't. And if I had to cook, and mind babies, and make clothes,
and live with a tobacco-chewer and pipe-smoker, and get up before
light and hurry him off to a factory, and wash and dress the children
for school, and then clean and cook some more, maybe I wouldn't be--
quite like I am now. Maybe I wouldn't--"
"I am very sure of it." Mrs. Burnham's laugh was half a sigh. "Poor
people make us dreadfully mad at times, and we call them shiftless
and improvident and lazy, and some of them are. They are ignorant
and untrained. But the woman who is doing the hardest, bravest work
in the world to-day is the wife of the workingman, struggling to be
respectable and make her children so on wages that often aren't human,
much less Christian. When I build a monument it's to be to 'Unknown
Mothers.'"
She got up and pushed back her chair. "When are you going away,
Miss Gibbie? I'm so glad you are making Mary go with you." She hesitated
and with the tip of her parasol outlined the pattern of the rug at her
feet.
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