Bildungsromans; Love stories; Young women -- England -- Fiction
"I am so glad you think so, papa," said Lucilla, in her dutiful way. "I
don't think myself that she has gone off at all to speak of. In some
lights she might pass for being no older than I am--if she was very well
dressed, you know; and it really does not matter what age a woman is if
she keeps her looks. I should be very glad to see her nicely married,
for my part; she is one of the people who ought to be married," Miss
Marjoribanks continued, with an inflection of compassionate tolerance in
her voice. As for the Doctor, he mistook her as usual, and took her tone
of pity and kindly patronising disdain for another instance of his
daughter's policy and high art; whereas the truth was she was quite in
earnest, and meant every word she said. And then Dr Marjoribanks's sense
of humour was keener than that of Lucilla. After this the conversation
flagged slightly, for Miss Marjoribanks had undeniably received a shock.
In the midst of her benevolent preoccupation and care for other people,
it had suddenly dawned upon her that her own stronghold might be
attacked, and the tables turned upon her in the twinkling of an eye.
There are days of discouragement in the most triumphant career and this
was one of those uncomfortable moments. Her faith in herself did not
fail her for an instant; but the faith of her natural born subjects--the
creatures of her bounty--had visibly failed her. Neither Rose Lake nor
Mrs Mortimer had shown that confidence in Lucilla's genius which
experience and loyalty both called upon them to show. When Dr
Marjoribanks had gone downstairs to resume the case which he was writing
out for the _Lancet_, Lucilla passed through one of those moments of
sublime despondency which now and then try the spirits of the
benefactors of their race. A few tears came to her eyes as she reflected
upon this great problem. Without such trials genius would not fully know
itself nor be justly aware of its own strength. For no temptation to
give up her disinterested exertions had any effect upon the mind of Miss
Marjoribanks; and even her sense of pain at the unbelief of her
followers was mingled with that pity for their weakness which involves
pardon. Even when they wounded her she was sorry for them. It was nature
that was in fault, and not the fallible human creatures who had it not
in them to believe in the simple force of genius. When Lucilla had shed
these few tears over her subjects' weakness and want of faith, she rose
up again in new strength from the momentary downfall. It was, as we have
said, a sublime moment. The idea of giving them up, and leaving their
affairs to their own guidance, never for an instant penetrated into her
heroic mind; but she was human, and naturally she felt the prick of
ingratitude. When the crisis was over she rose up calmly and lighted her
candle, and went to her room with a smile upon her magnanimous lips. As
she performed that simple action, Lucilla had lifted up the feeble
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