England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Love stories; Twins -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
"Man is not made to live alone," he would say to himself, drearily, as
he sat late at night by his solitary fireside; and, though no visionary,
the thought of some fair young face would haunt him persistently. "I
wonder if I ever shall have a wife?" he would say to himself, as he
looked into the red, glowing caverns before him. "I shall be hard to
please. I should like her to be a younger and prettier Althea. Oh, she
is a noble creature, Althea! She would have been a treasure to any man,
but I fancy--I have always fancied--that she gave away her heart to
Everard Ward. Well, who knows what may happen, when I have earned my
fortune?" And then he smiled a little bitterly, as he opened his books
again. Thorold's strong, intense nature took nothing lightly. If he
loved, it was with his whole heart and soul. Alas! for him, the small,
pale face and dark, _spirituelle_ eyes of his little Undine were now all
the world to him. From the first he had recognised her sweetness and
intelligence.
How he had longed to hold her to his heart, and comfort her with the
assurance of his great love! How his nerves had thrilled with passionate
tenderness as he ministered to her, as though she were a little helpless
child! And all the time his heart had, with mute reverence, worshipped
her.
"I must not think of myself or my own happiness," he said to himself, as
he walked down the hill in the darkness that night. "My days have been
always joyless, and what does a little more pain matter? It is of her I
am thinking. God forbid that I should cloud her bright young life with
any of my cares or perplexity. My little Waveney, I would suffer a
hundred-fold more willingly than see you bearing my burdens."
Poor Thorold! In his generous self-renunciation he was making a grievous
mistake, though he little guessed it; for woman's nature was _terra
incognita_ to him. Generosity and self-abnegation are not solely
masculine virtues, and there are women to whom any form of
self-sacrifice for the sake of a beloved object is simply joy and
happiness; who care nothing for waiting and poverty, if they can only
lean on some strong arm and be at rest.
But Thorold was not wise enough to know this, so he formed a singular
resolution. He would see Waveney again. He would watch her closely. Ah!
he loved her so dearly that he felt he could almost read her thoughts.
If she received him with her old frankness of manner, if there were no
trace of consciousness in look or tone, he would know that his impulsive
speech had not reached her ear, and he would content himself with being
more guarded for the future.
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