United States -- History -- French and Indian War, 1754-1763 -- Fiction
She tried to ward my words, and all that they stood for, away. "You
see! You see!" she cried, "we must part. We must part while we can.
Monsieur, say no more. I beg you, monsieur." And she dropped in a
chair by the table and laid her head in her arms.
I could say nothing. I stood helpless and dizzy. I had asked her to
forget her country. Yet not once had she asked me to forget mine. If
I gave up my plans I could go to her now and draw her to my breast. I
gripped the table, and I did not see clearly. To save her life I had
jeopardized my plans; to follow her here I had jeopardized them again.
But now that I knew her to be safe---- No, I could not turn back; I
must walk the path I had laid for myself.
"What will you do with yourself, with your life?" I asked with stiff
lips.
She did not raise her head. "We are both children of opportunity.
What is left either of us but ambition, monsieur?"
"You will help your cousin in his plans?"
"If he will work for the state."
"But you will not marry him?"
"Monsieur, I bear your name! That--that troubles me sorely. To bear
your name yet work against France! Yet what can I do?"
I touched her hair. "Carry my name and do what you will. I shall
understand. As to what the world thinks,--we are past caring for that,
madame."
And then for a time we sat silent. I thought, with stupid iteration,
of how like a jest this had sounded when the woman said it to me in the
forest: a matter for coquetry, a furnishing of foils for the game. If
I had realized then---- But no, what could I have done?
One thing my thought cried incessantly,--women were not made for
patriotism. Yet even as accompaniment to the thought, a long line of
women who had given up life and family for country passed before my
memory. Could I say that this woman beside me had not equal spirit?
It seemed long that we sat there, though I think that it was not. I
laid my hand on hers, and she turned her palm that she might clasp my
fingers.
"You have never failed me, never, never," she whispered. "You are not
failing me now." And then I heard Starling's voice at the door calling
my name.
I opened to him mechanically, and accepted his pleasant phrases with a
face like wood, though my manner was apt enough, I think. I had no
feeling as regarded him; all my thought was with the woman by the table.
He went to her with his news, but she interrupted him. "I know." Her
face was as expressionless as my own. "I am going with you," she said
to him. "When do we leave?"
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