United States -- History -- French and Indian War, 1754-1763 -- Fiction
So long as daylight lasted we moved with some regularity in spite of
the rough ground. Then, knowing we were drawing nearer the Senecas, we
began to slip from tree to tree. The Indians did this like phantoms,
and the French troops imitated. Three hundred men went through the
forest, and sometimes a twig cracked. There was no other sound. We
went for some time. We heard owls hoot around us, and knew they might
be watch cries. Still we went on. We went till I felt the ground rise
steadily under my groping feet. The Seneca stronghold was on an
eminence. I gave the signal to drop where we were and wait for day.
We melted into the shadows, and lay rigid while the stars looked down.
The savage next me slept. His war club lay by his side and I felt of
it in the dark. It was made of a deer's horn, shaped like a cutlass;
it had a large ball at the end. The ball was heavy and jagged, and
would crush a skull.
There were hundreds of such clubs. In a few hours they would be in
use. And the woman was in camp.
My right arm was free from the sling and I dug my hands together. I
could feel the blood running in my palms, and I checked myself. If I
injured my hands how could I save the woman?
But nothing could save the woman.
I had given commands to spare all whites and to torture no one. But
Pierre was right. I was a fool to have pretended, even to myself, that
I thought the savages listened.
A fool can do harm enough, but a cowardly, soft-hearted man is the most
dangerous of knaves. I might have killed Pemaou when I threw the spear
at him; I might have killed him the night before my wedding in the
Pottawatamie camp. I had withheld my hand because it was disagreeable
to me to kill. And now the woman's life was to pay the forfeit of my
lax softness. I rolled in my agony, and bit the ground till my mouth
was full of leaf mould.
A planet swung from one tree-top to the next. What lay behind it? She
would know soon. But I could not follow her where she was going. I
should live. I knew that. When Death is courted he will not strike.
I had seen that in battle.
That first morning when she had come to me with the sunrise,--when she
had drifted to me, bound and singing,--I had called to her to have no
fear, that no harm should come to her. And she had trusted me.
She had a little hollow in her brown throat where I had watched the
breath flutter. I had never touched it.
I could thank God for her, for one thing. She had refused my kiss.
I saw the planet again, tipping another tree-top. I understood its
remoteness; in my agony I was part of it. What were men, countries,
empires! I felt the insignificance of life, of suffering. What did it
matter if these Indians died! Why should we not all die? I crawled to
my knees. I would give the signal to retreat. I would give it now.
Let the massacre come.
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