England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Triangles (Interpersonal relations) -- Fiction
He was in a state when the strongest suggestion would have its way with
him. He wanted to make Miriam suffer; he wanted to be dealt with kindly,
and he had a pitiful and unconscious willingness to take another's
mould. So, when he saw Helen on the moor, the sneering born of her
distance from him changed slowly to a desire for nearness, and he
remembered with what friendliness they had sat together in the heather
one autumn night, and how peace had seemed to lie upon them both. A
woman like that might keep a man straight, he thought, and when she
stopped to speak to him one morning, her smile was balm to his hurts.
She looked at him in her frank way. "You don't look well, George."
"Oh--I'm all right," he said, hitting his gaiters with his stick.
"It's a lovely day," she said, "and you have some lambs already. I hope
the snow won't come and kill them."
"Hope not. We're bound to lose some of them, though."
Why, he asked himself angrily, was she not afraid of him who was
planning injury to her sister? She made him feel as though he could
never injure any one.
"You haven't noticed my dog," she said.
"Yes--" he began. He had been noticing him for days, marching beside her
against the sky. "He's a fine beast."
"Isn't he?" Her finger-tips were on Jim's head.
"You want a dog now there's no man in your house."
She laughed a little as she said, "And he feels his responsibility,
don't you, Jim?"
"Come here, lad," Halkett called to him. "Come on. That's right!"
"He seems to like you."
"I never knew the dog that didn't; but don't make him too soft, or he'll
be no good to you."
"Well," she said gaily, "you are not likely to break into our house!"
His flush alarmed her, for it told her that she had happened on the
neighbourhood of his thoughts, and her mind was in a flurry to assert
her innocence and engender his, but no words came to her, and her hand
joined his in fondling the dog's head.
"Well, I must be going on," George said, and after an uncertain instant
he walked away, impoverished and enriched.
Helen sat down heavily, as though one of her own heart-beats had pushed
her there, and putting her arm round Jim's neck, she leaned her head on
him.
"Jim," she said, "don't you wish Zebedee would come back? If I hadn't
promised--" She looked about her. George had disappeared, and near by
grey sheep were eating with a concentration that disdained her and the
dog. It was a peaceful scene, and a few early lambs dotted it with
white. "It's silly to feel like this," she said. "Let's go and find
Miriam."
She was discovered in the garden, digging.
"But why?" Helen asked.
"I must have exercise." Her hair was loosened, her teeth worked on her
under-lip as her foot worked on the spade. "You don't know how I miss my
riding!"
"I've just seen George."
"Have you?"
"I spoke to him."
"How brave! How did he look?"
"Horrid. His eyes were bloodshot."
"Ah! He has been drinking. That's despair. Perhaps it's time I tried to
cheer him up."
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