Moth and Rust; Together with Geoffrey's Wife and The PitfallCholmondeley, Mary
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Moth and Rust; Together with Geoffrey's Wife and The Pitfall
Cholmondeley, Mary
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The cloud first showed itself, or rather Janet first caught sight of it,
on a hot evening towards the end of June, when Fred returned from
London, whither he had been summoned by Mr Brand, a fortnight after his
wife's death.
The days which had passed since Cuckoo's death had not had power to numb
the pain at Janet's heart. The shock had only so far had the effect of
shifting the furniture of her mind into unfamiliar, jostling positions.
She did not know where to put her hand on anything, like a woman who
enters her familiar room after an earthquake, and finds the contents
still there, but all huddled together or thrown asunder.
Her deep affection for her brother, and her friend Cuckoo, were wrenched
out of place, leaving horrible gaps. She had always felt a vague
repulsion to Monkey Brand, with his dyed hair and habit of staring too
hard at her. The repulsion towards him had shifted, and had crashed up
against her love for Fred, and Monkey Brand had acquired a kind of
dignity, even radiance. Even her love for George had altered in the
general dislocation. Its halo had been jerked off. Who was true? Who was
good? She looked at him wistfully, and with a certain diffidence. She
felt a new tenderness for him. George had noticed the change in her
manner towards him since her return from London, and, not being an
expert diver into the recesses of human nature, he had at first
anxiously inquired whether she still loved him the same. Janet looked
slowly into her own heart before she made reply. Then she turned her
grave gaze upon him. "More," she said, as every woman, whose love is
acquainted with grief must answer if she speaks the truth.
It was nearly dark when Janet caught the sounds of Fred's dog-cart,
driving swiftly along the lanes, too swiftly considering the darkness.
He drove straight to the stables, and then came out into the garden,
where she was walking up and down waiting for him. It was such a small
garden, merely a strip out of the field in front of the house, that he
could not miss her.
He came quickly towards her, and even in the starlight she saw how white
his face was. Her heart sank. She knew Fred had gone to London in
compliance with a request from Mr Brand. Had Mr Brand refused to renew
his bond, or to wait?
Fred took her suddenly in his arms, and held her closely to him. He was
trembling with emotion. His tears fell upon her face. She could feel the
violent beating of his heart. She could not speak. She was terrified.
She had never known him like this.
"You have saved me," he stammered, kissing her hair and forehead. "Oh!
my God! Janet, I will never forget this, never while I live. I was
ruined, and you have saved me."
She did not understand. She led him to the garden seat, and they sat
down together. She thought he had been drinking. He generally cried when
he was drunk. But she saw in the next moment that he was sober.
"Will Mr Brand renew?" she said, though she knew he would not. Monkey
Brand never renewed.
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