City and town life -- Fiction; Foundlings -- Fiction
"The lonesome little parlour at Mis' Cadoza's was so far past knowing
how to act with folks in it, that it never changed expression when we
threw open the shutters. Rooms that are used to folks always sort of
look up when the shutters are opened; some rooms smile back at you; some
say something that you just lose, through not turning round from the
window quite quick enough. But Mis' Cadoza's parlour was such a poor
folkless thing that it didn't make us any reply at all nor let on to
notice the light. It just set there, kind of numb, merely enduring
itself.
"'You poor thing,' I thought, 'nobody come in time, did they?'
"Insley picked out a cane-seat rocker that had once known how to behave
in company, and drew it to the window. Ain't it nice, no matter what
kind of a dumb room you've got into, you can open its window and fit the
sky onto the sill, and feel right at home....
"Robin sat there with Chris in her arms, waiting for any stir in the
front bedroom. I went in the bedroom, while Dr. Heron told me about the
medicine, and it seemed to me the bare floor and bare walls and
dark-coloured bedcovers was got together to suit the haggardy unshaven
face on the pillow. Christopher's father never moved. I set in the
doorway, so as to watch him, and Insley went with the doctor to the
village to bring back some things that was needed. And I felt like we
was all the first settlers of somewheres.
"Chris was laying so still in Robin's arms that several times she looked
down to see if he was awake. But every time his eyes was wide and dark
with that mysterious child look that seems so much like thought. It kind
of hurt me to see him doing nothing--that's one of the parts about
sickness and dying and some kinds of trouble that always twists
something up in my throat: The folks that was so eager and able and
flying round the house just being struck still and not able to go on
with everyday doings. I know when Lyddy Ember, the dressmaker, died and
I looked at her laying there, it seemed to me so surprising that she
couldn't hem and fell and cut out with her thumb crooked like she
done--and that she didn't know a dart from a gore; her hands looked so
much like she knew how yet. It's like being inactive made death or grief
double. And it's like working or playing around was a kind of life....
The whole house seemed inactive and silence-struck, even to the kitchen
where Mis' Cadoza and the little lame boy was.
"Robin set staring into the lilacs that never seemed to bloom, and I
wondered what she was thinking and mebbe facing. But when she spoke, it
was about the Cadoza kitchen.
"'Miss Marsh,' she says, 'what kind of people must they be that can stay
alive in a kitchen like that?'
"'Pioneers,' I says. 'They's a lot of 'em pioneerin' away and not
knowing it's time to stop.'
"'But the dirt--' she says.
"'What do you expect?' I says. 'They're emergin' out of dirt. But they
_are_ emergin'.'
"'Don't it seem hopeless?' says she.
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