Sometimes he thought he would stand it no longer, he would throw down
his palette and his brushes, and let the portrait go to blazes, and
kneel at her feet, telling her, over and over again, that he loved
her, until she would have to believe him. Yet, for there is something
inhuman about the artist, he refrained. The portrait was going so
well--the best head he had ever done--out of sight better than
anything he had done at the studio (what wouldn't he give to have a
lesson on it from old Chose!). He wouldn't break the spell of
successful work until he could carry the picture no farther. Then, he
thought to himself, oh then, he would be strong to speak!
And, did he but know it, there was no need to speak; not any need at
all. For Christian knew. Not enough has been said about her if it has
not been made clear that, for her spirit, the barriers and coverings
that other spirits take to themselves wherewith to build hiding-places
and shelters were "of little avail. Motives and tendencies, the hidden
forces that underlie action, were perceptible to her as are to the
water-diviner the secret waters that bend and twist his hazel rod.
Well she knew that Larry loved her; he was not the first in whom she
had divined it, but he was the first whose heart, crying to her,
voicelessly, had wakened the answering chime in hers; the first, she
said to herself, and the last. She wondered, sometimes, if he knew; it
seemed incredible that he could be with her, watching her, studying
her least look, and not know. Yet, she loved him for not knowing, for
his boyishness, his babyishness, his simplicity. She wondered if she
were a fairy-woman, who by her arts had beguiled a mortal. She had met
an extraordinary woman once, in London, where anyone, however
extraordinary, is possible, and this being, so she told Larry, had
gazed at her, raptly, had then assured her that she saw her aura (blue
shot with gold) and had told her that she had a very aged soul..
"I felt as if I were an old boot!" said Christian.
"Old idiot herself!" Larry said hotly; "what else did she pretend to
know about you?"
"She said she had met me before, in a previous incarnation. She
couldn't believe that I didn't remember her. But I couldn't."
"I'm glad you couldn't," said Larry, still angry. "I won't have you
remembering lives that I wasn't in! Anyhow, I don't believe they were
half as good as this one. I call this a thundering good life. _I_
don't want to have been Julius Caesar or Queen Anne."
"Oh, I daresay you weren't," said Christian, consolingly; "you don't
remind me of either of them. What would be more to the point would be
to know what you were going to be. In this life, I mean."
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