Mount Royal: A Novel. Volume 1 of 3Braddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
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Mount Royal: A Novel. Volume 1 of 3
Braddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
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Christabel covered her face with her clasped hands, and listened without
a sigh or a tear. The pain she felt was too dull and vague as yet for
the relief of tears. The horrible surprise, the sudden darkening of the
dream of her young life, the clouding over of every hope, these were
shapeless horrors which she could hardly realize at first. Little by
little this serpent would unfold its coils; drop by drop this poison
would steal through her veins, until its venom filled her heart. He,
whom she had supposed all her own, with whose every thought she had
fancied herself familiar, he, of whose heart she had believed herself
the sole and sovereign mistress, had been one little year ago the slave
of another--loving with so passionate a love that he had not shrunk from
letting all the world know his idolatry. Yes, all those people who had
smiled at her, and said sweet things to her, and congratulated her on
her engagement, had known all the while that this lover, of whom she was
so proud, was only the cast-off idolater of an actress; had come to her
only when life's master-passion was worn threadbare, and had become a
stale and common thing for him. At the first, womanly pride felt the
blow as keenly as womanly love. To be made a mock of by the man she had
so loved!
Kneeling there in dumb misery at her aunt's feet, answering never a word
to that wretched record of her lover's folly, Christabel's thoughts flew
back to that still grey autumn noontide at Pentargon Bay, and the words
then spoken. Words, which then had only vaguest meaning, now rose out
of the dimness of the past, and stood up in her mind as if they had been
living creatures. He had compared himself to Tristan--to one who had
sinned and repented--he had spoken of himself as a man whose life had
been more than half lived already. He had offered himself to her with no
fervid passion--with no assured belief in her power to make him happy.
Nay, he had rather forced from her the confession of her love by his
piteous representation of himself as a man doomed to early death. He had
wrung from her the offer of a life's devotion. She had given herself to
him almost unwooed. Never before had her betrothal appeared to her in
this humiliating aspect; but now, enlightened by the knowledge of that
former love, a love so reckless and self-sacrificing, it seemed to her
that the homage offered her had been of the coldest--that her affection
had been placidly accepted, rather than passionately demanded of her.
"Fool, fool, fool," she said within herself, bowed to the dust by this
deep humiliation.
"My darling, why don't you speak to me?" said Mrs. Tregonell, tenderly,
with her arm round the girl's neck, her face leaning down to touch that
drooping head.
"What can I say? I feel as if my life had suddenly come to an end, and
there were nothing left for me to do, except just to sit still and
remember what has been."
"You mean to break with him?"
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