Mount Royal: A Novel. Volume 2 of 3Braddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
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Mount Royal: A Novel. Volume 2 of 3
Braddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
Fiction
It has been finely said by Matthew Arnold that there are times when a
man feels, in this life, the sense of immortality; and that feeling must
surely be strongest with him who knows that his race is nearly run--who
feels the rosy light of life's sunset warm upon his face--who knows
himself near the lifting of the veil--the awful, fateful experiment
called death. Angus Hamleigh knew that for him the end was not far
off--it might be less than a year--more than a year--but he felt very
sure that this time there would be no reprieve. Not again would the
physician's sentence be reversed--the physician's theories gainsayed by
facts. For the last four years he had lived as a man lives who has
ceased to value his life. He had exposed himself to the hardships of
mountain climbing--he had sat late in gaming saloons--not gambling
himself, but interested in a cynical way, as Balzac might have been, in
the hopes and fears of others--seeking amusement wherever and however it
was to be found. At his worst he had never been a man utterly without
religion; not a man who could willingly forego the hope in a future
life--but that hope, until of late, had been clouded and dim, Rabelais'
great perhaps, rather than the Christian's assured belief. As the cold
shade of death drew nearer, the horizon cleared, and he was able to rest
his hopes in a fair future beyond the grave--an existence in which a
man's happiness should not be dependent on the condition of his lungs,
nor his career marred by an hereditary taint in the blood--an existence
in which spirit should be divorced from clay, yet not become so entirely
abstract as to be incapable of such pleasures as are sweetest and purest
among the joys of humanity--a life in which friendship and love might
still be known in fullest measure. And now, with the knowledge that for
him there remained but a brief remnant of this earthly existence, that
were the circumstances of his life ever so full of joy, that life itself
could not be lengthened, it was very sweet to him to spend a few quiet
hours with her who, for the last five years, had been the pole-star of
his thoughts. For him there could be no _arrière pensée_--no tending
towards forbidden hopes, forbidden dreams. Death had purified life. It
was almost as if he were an immortal spirit, already belonging to
another world, yet permitted to revisit the old dead-and-gone love
below. For such a man, and perhaps for such a man only, was such a
super-mundane love as poets and idealists have imagined, all satisfying
and all sweet. He was not even jealous of his happier rival; his only
regret was the too evident unworthiness of that rival.
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