When Eustace Meeson had come to town, after being formally
disinherited, he had managed to get a billet as Latin, French, and Old
English reader in a publishing house of repute. As it happened, on this
very afternoon he was strolling down the Strand, having finished a
rather stiff day’s work, and with a mind filled with those idle and
somewhat confused odds and ends of speculation with which most brain
workers will be acquainted. He looked older and paler than when we last
met him, for sorrow and misfortune had laid their heavy hands upon him.
When Augusta had departed, he had discovered that he was head over
heels in love with her in that unfortunate way—for ninety-nine times
out of a hundred, it is unfortunate—in which many men of susceptibility
do occasionally fall in love in their youth—a way that brands the heart
for life in a fashion that can no more be effaced than the stamp of a
hot iron can be effaced from the physical body. Such an affection—which
is not altogether of the earth—will, when it overcomes a man, prove
either the greatest blessing of his life or one of the heaviest, most
enduring curses that a malignant fate can heap upon his head. For if he
achieves his desire, even though he serve his seven years, surely for
him life will be robbed of half its evil. But if he lose her, either
through misfortune or because he gave all this to one who did not
understand the gift, or one who looked at love and on herself as a
currency wherewith to buy her place and the luxury of days, then he
will be of all men among the most miserable. For nothing can give him
back that which has gone from him.
Eustace had never seen Augusta but twice in his life; but then passion
does not necessarily depend upon constant previous intercourse with its
object. Love at first sight is common enough, and in this instance
Eustace was not altogether dependent upon the spoken words of his
adored, or on his recollection of her very palpable beauty. For he had
her books. To those who know something of the writer—sufficient, let us
say, to enable him to put an approximate value on his or her
sentiments, so as to form a more or less accurate guess as to when he
is speaking from his own mind, when he is speaking from the mind of the
puppet in hand, and when he is merely putting a case—a person’s books
are full of information, and bring that person into a closer and more
intimate contact with the reader than any amount of personal
intercourse. For whatever is best and whatever is worst in an
individual will be reflected in his pages, seeing that, unless he is
the poorest of hack authors, he must of necessity set down therein the
images that pass across the mirrors of his heart.
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