Love stories; New England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
What could she do? Die--and all the lovely sounds of nature that
she had learned to love with him from childhood said to her, “die
drearily.” But it was dreary life that was to be hers and slow-coming
patience in her desolate retirement from the world, and experience of
domestic shame and shame-crushed life and disgraced death in a darkened
household and strict poverty and unaccustomed labour, and by all this
a character forming--another woman than the gay, impetuous, proud,
loving girl of days flattered by fulness of prosperity. Another in all
but loving, and now she must love no more one she could not forget,
who had fled when he learnt from her cold letter that his falseness to
her was known, she could not sully her pen to tell him how, nor she, a
pure woman, hear or speak or think of him more. Love!--what could she
ever love again with anything more than quiet interest--she the pale
schoolmistress, lonely as that betrothed Mary of the first Ira Waddy,
preserver of her grandfather at Bunker Hill?
So this pale schoolmistress was calm and patient and learnt by her own
wrong (the only teaching) to hate all wrong and to know it under any
specious guise of quietism; and having something much to pardon in her
own life, she grew to pardon other ruined lives. She saw how easily
sorrow may become despair. A nobler woman she was becoming all these
years, but still solitary; loving the many, but lonely of the few to
love, until she found in Clara and Diana worthy objects of the closest
and tenderest affection.
And now, almost forgetting the wrong this poor dying victim of Belden’s
villainy had done her, in the sweet pleasure of forgiveness and the
dear passion of reviving love, Miss Sullivan must go to the deathbed of
her she called daughter, whose sad story she knew. She called Cecilia
and resigned to her the dying woman, now at peace.
“I cannot tell you now, dear Cecilia,” she said. “I must go. I must
think of what I have heard. Only, believe me, she has made me happy,
happy again as a child. God forgive her, as I do.”
She went to her house by the same paths where her brilliant youth had
walked; through the gate where she had so often stood for moments of
the shy and lingering tenderness of parting; under the ancient elms
whose gracefulness had drooped over her and her exiled lover in many
a moonlight of pensive hopefulness. The glory had come back again.
The freshness of youth and everlasting springtime was over all the
world. She need never again force herself to say that it was good and
beautiful; a brightness of transfiguring hope went before her and
revealed beneath the drifting away of grey dimness and tearful mists
the light of beauty unchangeable and goodness infinite.
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