Marriage -- Fiction; Washington (D.C.) -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
“Pardon me, but you don’t know. What does a woman know about such
things? How do you know what it is for a man as strong as I am, as
mature as I am, and with such a history as I have, to love? Yes, by
God, to love for the first time. What does a woman’s pale reflection
of passion know of the love of a man like me? I know all about life
and death too. I have been a half–dozen times within six inches of a
bullet that was extremely likely to be shot into my brain. I have felt
the whir of a knife, that sometimes got planted in me, but never quite
far enough to kill me. I have signed my name fifty times to things
that meant either millions of dollars to me or state’s prison. These
are only a few of the things that I know all about, but I tell you,
Elizabeth Darrell, that they all seem like milk and water compared with
what I feel for you. Do you know that the first time I saw you, when
you were a mere slip of a girl, that night I crushed your little pearl
heart under my foot, I felt a strange, even a superstitious interest
in you? I never forgot you; and the first moment I saw you that Sunday
afternoon, last November, something came over me which made everything
in the world seem small, beside the thought of winning you. I have
gone through a good deal since, but nothing has really mattered to me
except you.” Clavering stopped. His voice, always earnest, had remained
calm and even low.
Elizabeth was trembling from head to foot. Her resolution never to
marry Clavering was not shaken in the least, or even touched, but like
a child who has heedlessly set the torch to a powder magazine, she was
appalled at her own work. She remained silent—what was there for her
to say? And then she saw a figure pass the bowed shutters, making a
shadow flit across the floor; and it was the shadow of Hugh Pelham. She
sprang to her feet, a new light in her eyes which Clavering had never
seen before. Clavering was for an instant as completely forgotten as
if he had never been. He saw his fate in that look, that action. He
rose, too, and the next moment Hugh Pelham walked into the room. He was
visibly older, more weather–beaten, than he had been two years before,
and, although ten years Clavering’s junior, he looked quite the same
age. Evil–doing is very often good for the physical man and well–doing
bad for the physical man. The two men instinctively recognized each
other at the first glance, and hated each other instantly with a
mortal hatred. Elizabeth stood next Pelham. She had given him her hand
without a word, and he held it firmly.
Clavering turned to Elizabeth and said: “When can I see you again? Pray
make it as soon as possible. That much I can ask, after what has passed
between us.”
“Excuse me,” said Pelham, politely, “but I don’t think Mrs. Darrell can
see you again.”
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