Mrs. Dorriman: A Novel. Volume 1 of 3Chetwynd, Henry Wayland, Mrs.
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Mrs. Dorriman: A Novel. Volume 1 of 3
Chetwynd, Henry Wayland, Mrs.
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Her feeling for him had, indeed, much changed, and she never thought
bitterly of his old misdoings towards her. Time, which softens a grief,
heals many a difference; and, though she always had the consciousness of
having been hardly used, she constantly found herself making allowances
for him, and compassion was beginning to tone down all her sources of
irritation against him.
Jean's letter, posted over-night, arrived just after breakfast; the
girls were dismayed; they had parted from him with angry feelings, and
now, how were they to meet? Margaret, calling Grace in vain to accompany
her, set off for a long expedition among the lower hills that crowned
the heights behind Lornbay. From high up she obtained a larger view,
and, with Tennyson in her hands, with whom she spent all her happiest
moments, she prepared to wander far, not sorry to be alone, and feeling
secure from the companionship of Mr. Paul Lyons or of any of those
common-place, if friendly, women who had by degrees gathered round Mrs.
Dorriman and who tried Margaret's patience sorely.
Would a day ever come to her, she often thought with girlish impatience,
when the interests of life would be narrowed to a new pattern in
cross-stitch or crewel-work, and to the want of taste in some person's
way of setting a bow on the side of a cap. These trivial matters lay so
far outside anything that contained possible interest to her, that she
despised the people who evidently considered them of consequence.
Margaret also was beginning to make another discovery, and one that
filled her with pain and even terror. She had too candid a mind not to
own a truth to herself, however unwillingly, and the truth which
frightened her and dismayed her was the wide difference existing between
her sister and herself. She had all her life looked up to Grace, admired
her and worshipped her. Every day now showed her that Grace had, in all
ways, a lower standard than she had. She was contented to spend her time
in perfect and complete idleness; she would no longer even talk upon
matters of any importance with her sister. All those questions of
religious thought which crowd upon a young girl when her mind begins to
draw its own conclusions and she shakes off those boundaries and lines
which have, up till then, been the accepted guides for all her belief,
were too evidently distasteful to Grace to be persisted in. We feel it
as irreverent to allow a careless hand to touch our holiest and highest
thoughts as we do if a scoffer enters a church with us. Poor Margaret,
often perplexed, asking herself questions that have always baffled the
wisest men, blamed her own want of perception for not understanding. She
had a high ideal, a desire for the best, and she was often miserable
because of a supposed short-coming of a faith that was not unwavering.
To turn to Grace, who was, she thought, so far her superior in point of
cleverness, would have been such an endless comfort to her.
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