Charles was a little suspicious of such whole-hearted conversion. He
knew these enthusiasms for the duration of rehearsals, and he was
ill-at-ease because his anticipation of boundless wealth had not come
true. He had spent his advance and could not get another out of Mr
Gillies, who detested him and regarded his invasion of the theatre as a
ruinous departure from its traditions. Clara Mr Gillies considered to
be merely one of his Chief's infatuations. They never lasted very
long. He had seen his Chief again and again rush to the very brink of
disaster, but always he had withdrawn in the nick of time.... Mr
Gillies was like a perpetual east wind blowing upon Charles's
happiness. But for Mr Gillies there would have been boundless
wealth.... It was monstrous: Verschoyle had backed Charles's talent
and Mr Gillies was sitting on the money. Butcher could spend it
royally, but Charles had often to go to Clara and ask her for the price
of his lunch. At the very height of his fame, with success almost
within his grasp, he had to go almost hungry because genius has no
credit.
There was nothing to be done about it. He borrowed here and there, but
knew it was no real help. It simply sent rumours flying as to his
financial position, and he did not want either Butcher or Verschoyle to
know that money trickled through his fingers. He wanted their support
after this success to advance his schemes. Therefore he borrowed from
Clara, and she, entirely indifferent to all but the engrossing
development of the play, allowed Sir Henry to pay for her food, to give
her meals alone with him in the aquarium, and even to buy her clothes
and jewels. She took not the slightest interest in them, but, as it
seemed to give him pleasure to shower gifts and attentions upon her,
she suffered it, and never for a moment dreamed of the turn his
infatuation was taking.
As she progressed in her work she felt that she was achieving what she
desired, a passion for her art equal to Rodd's. For a time she had
thrust all thought of him aside, but as she gained in mastery and power
over the whole activity of the stage, he crept back into her mind, and
she could face him with a greater sense of equality, with more
understanding and without that jealousy the memory of which hurt
her.... She had acquired a sense of loyalty to art which was a greater
thing than loyalty to Charles. She had saved him, helped him, brought
him thus far. Henceforth he must learn to stand on his own feet. She
was glad that she had left him.
All these considerations seemed very remote as she worked her way
deeper and deeper into the play, which contained for her a reality
nowhere to be found in life. She became Ariel, a pure imagination,
moving in an enchanted air, singing of freedom and of a beauty beyond
all things visible.
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