The more I saw her, the more was her empire confirmed over me;
but still dubious of the Countess's fate, and conscious of my
pre-engagement, honor kept me silent. I had every reason to flatter
myself my address would have been acceptable, but my passion was
subordinate to that sense of honor my former obligations subjected
me to. It is hard to account for the motions of the human heart, or
trace the little springs that give rise to its affections--numberless
latent accidents contribute to raise or allay them, without our being
sensible of their secret influence. Thus situated, I came to England
at your request. The uncertainty of the Countess's fate renders me
wretched, while, to confess the truth, Mademoiselle de Querci haunts
my imagination. But _your_ felicity alleviates _my_ uneasiness--as
your joys or sorrows must ever be reverberated on the heart of
Your ladyship's obliged
And affectionate nephew,
MUNSTER.'
From Lady Eliza Finlay, to the Countess of Darnley.
London.
'My Dear Aunt,
This is a place I often wished to come to, but the peaceful
satisfaction I have had in your company makes me in vain find it in
your absence--everything I see, everything I hear, is so contrary
to reason, that, without diverting one's self of that quality, it
is impossible to be pleased with any thing, though the novelty may
engage one's attention at first. All here appear to adopt the reigning
ideas, and fashionable pursuits, with as much pleasure as I feel in
conforming to the principles which your kind instructions and edifying
example have implanted in my mind. They do not, however, appear to
me to be happy, and, like comedians (who are not diverted with the
amusement they occasion) regret being condemned to communicate a
pleasure which they do not partake, and lament not having received,
from a different education, other tastes, other talents, and other
manners. I connect myself as little as possible with them; as in
epidemic distempers we are only secure whilst we escape the touch
of the contagious person; and with respect to wounds of the mind,
they are like those of the body. These extravagancies I might,
perhaps, some months ago have considered in a less serious manner,
but the evident melancholy in which my brother is, shews me the
vanity of everything in this world--So handsome in his person, so
accomplished in his manners--possessing everything the world places
a value on--and yet too apparently wretched. The Marquis of P----,
Lord Sombre, and his other friends, endeavour in vain to rouse him
out of his _reveries_.--You are possessed of such philosophy, that
you may look upon this matter in another light; as for me, who have
_strong passions_, and that inseparable companion of them, _weak
reason_, I cannot help being seriously alarmed. My beloved brother
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