Cities and towns -- Growth -- Fiction; Wales -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
Now when you are reluctant to enter into explanation, and there is
something you badly want to do, you never (if you are an ordinary young
man) look very far for a reason. The first that comes will serve your
turn. If it is a flimsy one, no matter; you then get angry when its
flimsiness is pointed out to you, and presently out of your anger and
obstinacy you will have found a reason as good as another. John Willie
did not at all like those interior smiling taunts of himself that took
the form of congratulations on his neatly planned life and pillowed and
feathered death to close it. If anybody of his own weight had taunted
him thus he would have knocked that person down. But you cannot knock
down a whisper that seems to come on the wind from the mountains
through the night, making you, your ordered comfort notwithstanding,
absolutely wretched. Again John Willie turned to June.
"I say, June; this won't do, you know," he said.
June looked enquiringly at him.
"But we can't do anything but wait, dear, can we?"
He did not answer.
They waited. Half an hour passed. Then John Willie muttered again that,
among so many other things that would "do" beautifully, this particular
thing would not "do." June coloured a little.
"But--but--it isn't our fault," she murmured, picking at the fingers of
her gloves.
He saw she understood. Again they waited.
Then, suddenly, John Willie came shortly out with that reason that must
serve in the stead of his real reason. He knew how lame it was. A score
or two of other young couples were in precisely the same situation as
they, and more that cheerfully resigned to their plight; but then they
were not being goaded and taunted as John Willie was being goaded and
taunted. They were not being told that their paths lay, so to speak, on
flowers, while the paths of others were the stony road, that cut and
blistered the foot, and tired the eyes, and bowed the back (but had no
power, perhaps, thus to reproach the heart).... Anyway, John Willie was
not disposed to stand it.
"June," he said abruptly, "I can't stay up here all night with you."
Her wail interrupted him.--"Oh-h-h!----"
"It wouldn't do."
"Oh-h-h--it isn't our fault----"
"No, but that can't be helped. The woman I marry----"
"Oh-h-h--but there isn't anything to do!"
"Oh, yes there is. We needn't be together. I can get into another car or
something. It will only be like walking along the footboard of a train."
She gave a little shriek.--"Oh--if you do I shall throw myself out--I
know I shall!----"
"You won't do anything so silly. Get up, dear; I've quite made up my
mind. I tell you it wouldn't do. The woman I marry...."
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