My empress; twenty-three years of intimate life with the empress of all the Russias from her marriage to the day of her exileMouchanow, Marfa
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My empress; twenty-three years of intimate life with the empress of all the Russias from her marriage to the day of her exile
Mouchanow, Marfa
Alexandra, Empress, consort of Nicholas II, Emperor of Russia, 1872-1918
Alexandra Feodorovna raised her eyes in mute surprise, but without
protesting rose up from her seat, a thing which, by the way, I never
understood how she could have done. Korniloff then proceeded to read
to her an order signed by all the ministers, which declared that she
was to consider herself under arrest, that she was forbidden to receive
or to send any letters without the permission of the officer in charge
of the Palace of Czarskoi Selo, that she was not to walk out alone in
the park or grounds, and that she was to consider herself obliged to
execute any further orders that might be given to her. He announced
to her at the same time that he was about to change the guard at the
Palace and that she would be strictly watched.
A dead silence reigned in the room after these words of the old
soldier. Count Benckendorff, who was present, felt as if the earth
had opened under his feet, but he deemed it inadvisable to say
anything. The Empress simply bowed her head, then asked Korniloff not
to remove her children’s attendants until they were recovered from
their illness, and especially to allow the sailor who for years had
taken care of little Alexis to remain with him. The General said that
he had no objection to this; then she simply turned her back upon him
and without saying anything further left the room. Korniloff then gave
his instructions to Count Benckendorff, who, when he was left alone
with him, entreated not to be dismissed, declaring that he meant to
share the fate of his masters in any case. The Commander made him
then responsible for all the interior arrangements of the Palace, and
advised him that for the future he should have to apply to the State
Treasury and not to the administration of the former Sovereign’s
private fortune for the money necessary for current expenses, and he
requested him to be as economical as possible in the matter of these
expenses.
The Empress, as if dazed, went to her bedroom. There I was waiting
for her. One look at her face was sufficient to make me realise that
something absolutely dreadful had taken place. Alexandra Feodorovna
threw herself face downwards on a sofa placed at the foot of her bed,
and exclaimed between the most heartrending sobs: “We are lost, we are
lost! What will become now of these unfortunate children; what will
become of them?” And for a long time she sobbed on, and would not be
comforted by anything that I could say.
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