My Experiences in a Lunatic Asylum: By a Sane PatientMerivale, Herman Charles
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My Experiences in a Lunatic Asylum: By a Sane Patient
Merivale, Herman Charles
Insanity (Law); Mentally ill -- Care
He showed no intention of interfering, but watched with interest
from the opposite shore, and nearly filled his pocket-book. Then I
disappointed him, turned away from the precipice like Box the printer,
went to the refreshment-room and ate an ice. This bothered him a good
deal, but he noted it down. In the train he got into a carriage
conspicuously remote from mine; met a mate in London to whom he
communicated his ideas; and, after watching me partake of a melancholy
dinner in Lucas's comfortable coffee-room, while he dallied with buns and
beer in the front shop, the two followed me to Mr. Hare's pleasant little
theatre--I had never dared, after the lowering effect of the associations
of the 'establishment,' which seemed to sink me in my own esteem, to raise
my eyes above the pit--sat behind me, and watched my conduct in respect of
Gilbert's 'Broken Hearts' with a regretful desire evident in their own
minds for 'something spicy;' then saw me safe to my hotel for the nonce,
and departed with a conscientious feeling of having done their duty
detectively, and having entirely escaped my observation. Were they primary
scholars in the work, I wonder? And which kept the more accurate notes,
the watcher in his book or the watched in his head? Nothing surprises me
more, as I think over all that dreary time, than the singular acuteness
of observation in me, which no date or detail seems to have escaped.
'Hyperæsthesia,' I suppose, or derangement of the white matter. Perhaps it
was an infarction.
Well, by the superhuman exertions of Inspector Bucket I had been tracked
to my lair, and a doctor descended upon me the next morning, and asked me
a few more questions. But he was the one of whom I have spoken as having
given a worthy brain to earnest work, and having so signally condemned
asylums and delusions. No man could have been more kind and wise. He might
well have been deceived into thinking me mad, I think; for by this time,
with voices, delusions, visions, and all the nonsense drummed into me, I
had well-nigh begun to think myself so. I had hardly any clothes with me,
as I wandered with the impression that there must be a full-stop somewhere
near. I had not brushed my hair; I looked utterly dazed, and had taken
refuge in the smallest room on the topmost story of one of our largest
hostelries. If I had been charged as an escaped convict, answer had been
difficult. He was not deceived, though, and ordered the rest of mind and
body which is sometimes as vain a prescription as port wine and sea-air to
the wasted pauper. Failing better roads to it, I was sent off to a
hydropathic establishment in the north, once more in the charge of a
body-servant, who was not to lose sight of me upon the road. _Ay de mi!_
all the hopeless old story was coming on again.
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