My Experiences in a Lunatic Asylum: By a Sane PatientMerivale, Herman Charles
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My Experiences in a Lunatic Asylum: By a Sane Patient
Merivale, Herman Charles
Insanity (Law); Mentally ill -- Care
I knew that palace of the water-cure well. I had known pleasant days there
in happier times, when I thought I would go thither and bathe for no
special reason, and had amused myself much with the whims and oddities of
the place; all the people 'going to Gravesend by water,' as Sir George
Rose used to say. It had been the property of a kindly Scotchman since
gone, who has left me pleasant memories of his home-circle and his private
stock of 'whusky,' which he administered to me freely at night, when the
water-washers were gone to bed, after instructing me in the theoretic
virtues of abstinence in his council-chamber in the morning. Now, like
other places of the kind, it had lost its home-shape, and passed into the
impersonal hands of a company. The presiding medical authority was now a
different man. I wonder if he dreams of me sometimes? The first night
after my reaching the place a crash came. I could bear this espial no
longer; and the dreams of dead dear ones had become so vividly mixed with
the nightmare horrors inherited from (what shall I call the asylum?)
Pecksniff Hall, that I never knew half I was doing. The professional name
for dreams, as I said before, is 'visions.' Dreaming that a warder was
upon me, and that a ghost was telling me to run, I jumped up in my sleep
and rolled over the nearest banisters. The fall was not severe, and the
'desperate attempt' failed; for I only broke a rib and stove in my
breastbone, which proved afterwards handy for the warders to work upon. I
was put to bed for a time and taken some care of; and before long was able
to drive and stroll about again, and join in lawn-tennis. But the
dream-fears and the daily terrors haunted me still; and I still shrank
from everybody. At last came the realisation of my constant fear; and I
fell into a fit of light-headed wandering, and began calling out at
intervals various silly things. What should have been done was to nurse me
and pour wine down my throat, and apply the common means of homely
restoration. What was done was this: the stout bathmen and servants of the
place were sent to hold me down; and I was gagged, and left gagged, till
the blood ran down from my mouth. Then came two strange doctors as before,
of whose names and faces I am ignorant, and were instructed by my
'friends,' I suppose, to sign a certificate. I was then given a strong
dose of opium, and a summons was sent to the Master of Pecksniff Hall, who
despatched two stout warders northward by the train, for the impounding of
my Herculean frame. One was the good-natured colonial; the other a man
whom I held in especial aversion, a fat ex-footman, who afterwards
reported his work as 'very good fun,' and had a particular aptitude, when
I was lying helpless in bed, for jumping on my breastbone and half
throttling me. A fancied resemblance in his moony countenance to an
historical face made me, when I was one day dreamily contemplating him
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