Authors, German -- 19th century -- Biography; May, Karl Friedrich, 1842-1912
prominent one of them all is this advocate of the Münchmeyers',
who directs everything and all of them, even the two Fathers. The
most harmless and amusing one, on the other hand, is Mr. Cardauns,
who, as far as I know, could never made to confess that he did not
possess my original manuscripts, until recently in Bonn he had to
admit in my presence, being interrogated by the judge in charge as
a witness, that he had never even seen them.
The question, whether that Münchmeyer lady will be able to bring
me down with the assistance of her five secular and clerical
comrades, has long since been decided. Nobody who knows how
matters are would continue asking it. - -
Radebeul-Dresden, October 1910.
Karl May.
IX. Conclusion
Just as my "traveller's tales" are only sketches, this work before
you is also just a sketch. It could not be anything else, because
what I am telling you has not ended yet and because numerous
lawsuits, which have been forced upon me, are taking aim at me
like menacing revolvers. Furthermore, brutal physical pain
prevents me from writing as I would like to. To receive, during a
time of ten years, four times a day, entire stacks of letters and
newspapers, overflowing with venom, mockery, and gloating, is more
than any Samson or Hercules could endure. Mind and soul have
remained strong. Not the slightest part of my inner self has
changed. My confidence in God and my love for mankind have not
been shaken. But in the end, it has still got the best of my
body, which used to seem so indestructible in the past. It is on
the verge of collapse. For one year, I lack natural sleep.
Whenever I want to rest for a few hours, I must resort to
artificial means, to sleeping powders, which only numb the senses
and are not harmless in their effect. I also cannot eat. Just a
few bites a day, my poor, dear wife forces me to take. But
instead, I am in pain, an incessant, terrible neuralgic pain,
which forces me up from my bed at night and rips the pen out of my
hand a hundred times during the day! I feel, as if I had to
scream all of the time, to shout for help. I cannot lie down,
cannot sit, cannot walk, and cannot stand up, and yet I have to do
all of these things. Most of all, I would like to die, die, die,
and yet I do not want to die and may not die, because my time is
not up yet. I have to solve my task.
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