"Now, the very night of my return from my wanderings, I
walked a dreamer in the midst of the roar of that great
western city, my soul more than ever crushed beneath
the weight of its ruin. I beheld myself as during my
happiest years when I was full of confidence in God and
the future; and then I turned my glance upon myself, the
man of the present moment, for ever tossed between hope
and fear, between desire and remorse, between calm and
discouragement. When I had well contemplated myself thus,
and had by thought stirred up the mud of the past and had
considered the good and evil that had emanated from me, I
raised in inexpressible anger my fist towards heaven, and
I said to God: 'To whom, then, does this earth belong?' At
the same moment, I felt myself hustled violently, and by
an irresistible movement I lowered my arm to strike--in
striking the cheek of him who was jostling me, I felt I was
smiting the world. Oh! what a surprise! my hand, instead of
beating his face, encountered his hand; a loving pressure
drew us together, and in grave and solemn tones he said:
'The water, the air, the earth and fire belong to none--they
are God's!' Then, uncovering the folds of the garment
which covered my breast, he put a finger on my heart and a
brilliant flame leapt out and I felt relief. Overcome with
amazement, I exclaimed--
"'Who art thou, whose word strengthens and whose touch
regenerates?'
'Thou shalt know, this very night!' he replied, and went on
his way.
"I followed and examined him at leisure: he was a man of the
people, with a crooked back and powerful limbs; an untrimmed
beard fell over his breast, and his bare and nearly bald
head bore witness to hard work and rude passions. He carried
a sack of plaster on his back which bowed him down beneath
its weight. Thus bent he passed through the crowd...."
The disciple then followed the god; for this man who had comforted him
was the Mapah; he followed him to the threshold of his studio, into
which he disappeared. It was the same studio to which Chaudesaigues had
taken me, on the quai Bourbon, in the Ile Saint Louis. The door of the
studio soon reopened and the apostle entered and was present at the
revelation, which the Mapah had promised him. But, first of all, there
was the discovery of the Mapah himself.
"Meanwhile, the owner of this dwelling had none of the
bearing of a common working-man. He was, indeed, the man of
the sack of plaster, and the uncut beard, and torn blouse,
who had accosted me in such an unexpected fashion; he had
exactly the same powerful glance, the same breadth of
shoulders, the same vigorous loins, but on that furrowed
brow, and in those granite features and that indescribable
personality of the man there hovered a rude dignity before
which I bowed my head.
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