Take notice, reader, that, before that unfortunate journey to Spain,
Alphonse Rabbe was never spoken of otherwise than as the _Antinous of
Aix._ An incurable melancholy took possession of him from this period.
"I have outlived myself!" he said, shaking his head sadly. Only his
beautiful hair remained of his former self. Accursed be the invention
of looking-glasses! By thirty, he had already stopped short of two
attempts at suicide. But his hands were not steady enough and the
dagger missed his heart. We have all seen that dagger to which Rabbe
offered a kind of worship, as the last friend to whom he looked for
the supreme service. He has immortalised this dagger. Read this and
tell me if ever a more virile style sprung from a human pen--
THE OLD DAGGER
"Thou earnest out of the tomb of a warrior, whose fate is
unknown to us; thou wast alone, and without companion of thy
kind, hung on the walls of the wretched haunt of a dealer in
pictures, when thy shape and appearance struck my attention.
I felt the formidable temper of thy blade; I guessed the
fierceness of thy point through the sheath of thick rust
which covered thee completely. I hastened to bargain so as
to have thee in my power; the low-born dealer, who only saw
in thee a worthless bit of iron, will give thee up, almost
for nothing, to my jealous eagerness. I will carry thee
off secretly, pressed against my heart; an extraordinary
emotion, mingled with joy, rage and confidence, shook my
whole being. I feel the same shuddering every time I seize
hold of thee.... Ancient dagger! We will never leave one
another more!
"I have rid thee of that injurious rust, which, even after
that long interval of time, has not altered thy form.
Here, thou art restored to the glories of the light; thou
flashest as thou comest forth from that deep darkness. I
did not imprudently entrust thee to a mercenary workman to
repair the injustice of those years: I myself, for two days,
carefully worked to repolish thee; it is I who preserved
thee from the injurious danger of being at the first moment
confused with worthless old iron, from the disgrace,
perhaps, of going to an obscure forge, to be transformed
into a nail to shoe the mule of an iniquitous Jesuit.
"What is the reason that thy aspect quickens the flow of
my blood, in spite of myself?... Shall I not succeed in
understanding thy story? To what century dost thou belong?
What is the name of the warrior whom thou followedst to his
last resting-place? What is the terrible blow which bent
thee slightly?...
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