Let none be deceived! Touching this, slander has always attacked one
person alone, he to whom I have consecrated my life as he has vowed his
life to me. His enemies have credited him with their own base motives.
They did not want to see, and they denied that he was, by his greatness
of soul, far above all miserable calculations of self-interest.
In vain he threw into the abyss all that he had, all that he was likely
to possess. What sublime abnegation, stifled by hate beneath its hideous
inventions!
Oh, noble friend, what has not the howling and monstrous beast of hatred
said of you?
No doubt you, like myself, were unable to struggle against fraudulent
financiers, deceitful men of law and treacherous friends. But to dare
to insinuate that you have ever subjugated my will, misled my steps,
falsified my acts--ah! it is more absurd than infamous.
I have, I always have had, a power of resistance capable of sacrificing
everything to an ideal of honour and liberty, otherwise I should have
been a mere doll, or a weathercock responsive to every breath.
Full of consciousness as regards the essentials of human dignity, I
should then be unconsciousness personified for things of secondary
importance.
Is not that foolish?
But let us leave this topic and throw a new light on the subject of the
incredible attempts of a hatred which nothing could disarm up to
that day when another justice, not that of man, overthrew thrones so
unworthily occupied and delivered me from the persecutions of which I
was the object.
On the eve of their fall the German and Austro-Hungarian monarchs still
believed they could do as they liked with me. The wrongs I suffered
are only one example of what they dared do. What crimes have they not
committed which still lie hidden! And what corruption clings even to
their memory!
The commencement of the intrigues which brought about my fall is known
to the world.
I was at Nice with my daughter. Dora, who represented alike my hope and
my consolation, was taken from me by her fiancé, who was in league with
the Prince of Coburg, and who broke the solemn promise he had given me.
The prince instinctively felt that I intended to make my escape, and
he knew that with me would also vanish his hopes of possessing my
inheritance from the King of the Belgians.
"She might get a divorce," he thought to himself. "She might marry
again."
I had thought of divorce. This might well have to come much later.
But if I could not help freeing myself from a promise to a man who
had destroyed the reasons which were the basis of the spoken vow, I
hesitated about freeing myself from my vows to an invisible and silent
God, who does not corrupt, deceive or persecute.
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