"Maybe I didn't show it," she said with a smile, "but I've always held,
'in to mysel',' that the gifted folk were God's aristocrats, and the
day I told Danvers Carmichael and you my esteem of lords and titles and
forbears I said just what I thought, though both of you laughed at me,
for I reasoned that any one whom the Almighty took such special pains
with must have the grand character as well. And so I made of all the
people who write and paint and sing a great assembly, like Arthur's
knights, who were over the earth righting wrongs and helping the weak.
Then came the Burns book; and there are no words to tell the glory of
it to me. All the great thoughts I had dreamed were written there, and
before the power of this man, who took the commonest things of life and
wrote them out in letters of gold, I felt as one might before the gods.
It was of Burns I thought in my waking hours, and 'twas of him I
dreamed by night; and I thanked God to be born in his country and his
time, so that I might see one, from the people, who had, in its highest
essence, the thing we call genius.
"But always, always," she interrupted, smiling, "with the conceit of
myself which I mentioned before. Because God had given me a little
gift, I believed that I was in some degree a chosen creature, a bit
like the Burns man himself.
"The first time I talked with him at the inn I felt his power, his
charm; but there was something in his ways to which I had never been
accustomed in men--a certain freedom, which I put by, however, as one
of the peculiarities of his gift.
"Well," she said, coming over and burying her face in my breast, "it
took me but two weeks to discover that the thing we call genius has no
more to do with a person's character than the chair he sits in; that a
man can write like a god and live like the beasts in the fields. Can
speak of Christian charity like the disciples of old, and hold the next
person who offends him up to the ridicule of the whole parish! That he
can write lines surpassing--aye!" she cried, "_surpassing_ Polonius's
advice to his son, and leave them uncopied on an ale-house table to go
off with the first loose woman who comes by, and be carried home, too
drunk to walk, the next morning, roaring out hymns about eternal
salvation.
"And after I met the Armour girl, and found the harm that Burns had
brought to her, my idol fell from its clay feet, and I was alone in a
strange country, with my gods gone, and my beliefs in shreds around me.
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