Of the next five months there is little to tell which bears directly
upon my tale, except to make some mention of the "intellectual reform"
of the Duke of Borthwicke, a name he put himself upon his altered
conduct. News we had of him in plenty, and if rumor could be relied
upon, he was a changed man. The first note of his new behavior was
struck by his relieving the poor tenant-bodies on his Killanarchie
estates from their rentals for three years because of the losses from a
cattle blight. And before the sound of this had died away another bit
was added to the tune of his reformation by his coming out strong
against the crown for the repeal of the tax on Scotch whisky. And the
full song of his praises began to be sung in public when he, being one
of the Scotch Sixteen in the English House of Peers, declared for the
inadequacy of representation which Scotland had in the House of
Commons, and moved for an election of fifty-four, after the English
manner[8].
[8] Scotland had but 16 Peers and 48 Representatives in
Parliament at this time.
His letters to Nancy and myself at this time were of a piece with him,
for he spoke with quaint sarcasm of that which he termed his "change of
heart," and of the curious pleasure he obtained from marking his life
out along another line. He wrote with detail as well of a new Paisley
industry which he had started on one of his estates, asking Nancy's
advice concerning a teacher for the lace-work, it being his purpose to
have the young women round Borthwicke Castle turned toward making a
livelihood after this manner. During all of this time his letters came
frequently, and Nancy read them with much pleasure and many comments,
but her private feelings toward the writer of them she confided to
none.
There was a talk which set Nancy's state of mind with some clearness,
however, which fell between us directly after the offer of marriage
made to her by McMurtrie of Ainswere.
"Dearest," she said, "I am beginning to see with my mind that every
woman flies in the face of the Almighty not to take into her life's
reckoning the instinct of her sex for love and motherhood. It seems to
me that a great love must be the best thing of all; but I'm just here,
I don't dare to marry because I'm afraid of myself; and I don't dare to
stay unmarried for fear of that great and unrelenting thing called
Nature."
"Nancy," said I, with an earnestness that came straight from the heart,
"if ye feel like that, your hour has not yet struck. For when the great
love comes, it's not a question of what you want, but what ye can't
help; and I wouldn't think anything more about it, for ye'll know when
it comes, my dear," I cried; "ye'll know when it comes!"
There was an odd scrap of business, trifling in itself, and yet leading
to great trouble, which fell about this time, and I set it down as of
interest to those who note the way fate uses all as instruments.
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