Day after day, scrupulously dressed, he sat in his office, an expensive
cigar between his lips, preserving to his associates what would be
called a "poker face". If he were able to get the best of any
one--especially through doubtful and unanticipated means--it gave him an
illusion of power which tempted him later to prolific benevolence. He
had begun life as a telegraph operator in a small town. He deserted this
profession to go into trade. At one time he was a small manufacturer.
Later he sold mining stock, and promoted a company that ultimately
failed. His first success had come when he went into the lumber
industry, and he had recently become possessed of some oil fields that
were making him rich.
Charles never felt pity for any one who was on a financial equality with
himself. He would fleece such a man without a qualm. He distrusted
Socialists, tolerated trade unions with suspicion, but was sorry for
"the rough necks". Poor devils! I know what it's like. We're all of us
poor devils. He loved to think of himself as one who, through sheer
force of initiative, had risen despite unusual handicaps. By gosh,
before I get through I'm going to be quits with the world! At least we
can keep the women out of this--! Damned muck!
In the flush of unscrupulous conquest, his eyes glistened with triumph.
His gestures were harshly confident. He looked young and happy. If, at
such times, he encountered women, they found his mixture of simplicity
and ruthlessness particularly ingratiating.
* * * * *
In the street Charles remembered a small niece whom he had not thought
of for a long time. Brother's kid. I'll send her something. His brother
was a poor man working on a small salary. Charles wanted to do something
generous that would help him to think well of himself. God, what a fool
I am! He walked along briskly with his hat off, looking insolent and
debonair. When an acquaintance passed in a motor car a jovial greeting
was exchanged. To make himself oblivious to the resentment which was in
the memory of Julia, Charles dwelt elaborately on the memory of other
women. Blanche, damn her! I'll have to go and see her again. One hand
around the old boy's neck and the other in his pocket. He tried to keep
away from the center toward which his thoughts converged. What price
life! Hell! (In the depths of me, this awful despair. Horror, horror,
horror. Something clutched and dragged him into himself.) He stretched
his neck above his collar and passed his finger along the edge. (Some
woman's throat white like that. Bent back. Lilies on a windy day. I
shall die.)
Young Goode coming toward him. Goode thinking, Here's that unmoral
innocent. He'll live forever. Hurst's a bounder. Damn well-meaning ass.
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